The things we say...

Either make it or break it... Especially when it's a said in a rash... When you're mind is just filled with anger. THAT REALLY IS ABLE TO BREAK badly!

Keep your comments to yourself. If not, check with someone of higher level of wisdom before sharing with anyone else. I almost broke it again... Thank God, he's a great man of patience. We're still best friends~ hehe... PHEW!~

Late day out~

Xinyi drove us home! We decided to go Kbox at 12mn... We were so HIGH, I forgot to take pictures in that tiny room... What a waste... Here's some after I've come to my senses~ haha~


okok... Concentrate pls...















The three of them, still wide awake taking pictures... the new face is Vincent and the other guy is Kang Yu...











<<< THE ROAD... We almost bang into another car!!!






Oh yes... I got got home... it's 4am now... PHEW~ What an exciting day! Service was GREAT! I'm glad Vincent came. *-* ^_^

I REALLY lost 4kg!

Yes... but cos I'm poisoned by Sakura Japanese buffet restaurant's... FOOD of course... and on Christmas... I can't really smile, eat, sit, walk or do anything properly! I forced my way to Xinyi's house for Christmas party with G3 with a friend Vincent OH! haha~ All turned out great. The only thing is... I spent part of the time sleeping in Xinyi's room, and used 1hr to finish half a plate of beehoon which was DELICIOUS! (Vincent did it!) I just can't eat more!... All other delicious food like... Donuts, nuggets, five spice wrap and many more!!! ROAR!!!

I only ate that half plate of beehoon the whole day!

I woke up the next day and realised... I lost 4kg! YAY!!!



Can't really type... still having gastric flu...

Christmas Eve

Gynn and I decided to make gingerbread man for our lovely friends. Check out the mess...










Better be nice...












Man.... Flatten gingerbread man! It's our 1st attempt... we need time~











Ahh~ Practice makes perfect! ^_^










I forgot to take more pictures~ Aaron and Gynn are great secondary school friends man~ It's amazing how we get to hang out on Christmas eve... God is Good.

Loved...

Lastly, I just want to tell you that I'm not disappointed with you, just worried for you. I really want to see you up again. The faith-filled Becky I see before...

At this, I will!

Thank you XinYi...

Pictures Vomitted II.I

There's no need for captions, we all know we look GREAT! ^_^
CHARLOTTE you see your crazy, cute face?! hahaha!!

Watch me TRANSFORM!!!

Yupz, transform into a Beauty Queen! hahaha~ Tell me it's possible! hae hae hae... I went to Orchard alone today, to get myself a good deal... yup $522!! Good deal Hah! ^_^ WATCH ME TRANSFORM!!!

CRAZY day out!

It was a Cheese and Pizza day! Charlotte knows why la! ROAR!~

The day turned out with "Rebekah back to her usual form"! The go out, and return home late Rebekah... This should be the way! Staying at home makes Rebekah a Siao Ginna!

Yup, so, the Saviour is Charlotte Chan! Brought us so much jokes and laugher! "Talk leh, talk leh!", "Damn sian, 2 of us only...", "So expensive!!!" and "I don't care! We'll sit here for a long time! Till the crowd goes..." hahaha~ this girls says EVERYTHING that I want to do! hahaha~ Our little Chipmunks brought us LOADS of things to talk about too! The talking and SINGING chipmunks! HYPER cute! I don't care... I want CHIPMUNK PLUSHES for Christmas! Especially Theodore! hahaha~

I bought a 2008 organizer too! From Prints... It's expensive la... But I'm sure it's expensive enough to make me pen down EVERY SINGLE page in it. 2008's going to be NEAT and ORGANIZED!

After sitting down at Starbucks, with Charlotte designing a blank page of my organizer, and tatooing my hand, we decide to head home...

Today's outing, left me in a hyper state.... I can't sleep... I need to blog about today! It's 2.56am...! Time to sleep? NOPE!!! I still want to play Maple, Audition and Sim2!!! Not even soon!

I know EXACTLY what's wrong!

I still love God. I know that He's real. I know exactly what I should do. I know EXACTLY what I've not done. I know, I know, I KNOW! For those who called, thanks for the effort... I really appreciate it... Who else on earth will care man... Even my brother gave me a skeptical tone.

I also know, staying away or coming back onto the right track or not, is not determined by people's works. I've seen God grace on my life... its A LOT of GRACE! Cannot be ignored. What people say or do, will not be able to make me love God lesser, or put me out of His house.

I don't feel like going out!!

Really, after a few days of holidays, staying home becomes a joy and my lifestyle... Where's the "I MUST GO OUT EVERYDAY!" me?! The "staying home is a chore and torture" attitude?! Oh well, I have maple story and audition to entertain me.

At times, things just get rather emotional. Going to church gets boring too~ Too much time to think and get crazy... Yupz, thats what I've been doing for the past few weeks, with some of the days back at work to clean up for 2008, and outings with some very nice friends like CHARLOTTE, KRYSTAL, DERRICK, MARYSE, JIN HWEE and JIE WEI! Realise they're mostly E1s? These are the people who were with me all these while! With some hiccups, I learned. Oh man~ hahaha~

I kinda like staying at home. ALONE! TV and PC both switched on. Discovery channel and National Geographic are my favourite channels! SO EXCITING na~ na~ na~ na~ na~ na~ na~!

EXCITING? Think again... Bleh~

OPEN AGAIN!~

Things has been great! 2nd day of VBS today... SHIOK man! So much taught. So much absorbed! Pastor David Shearer's really very powerful! I understood so much~ Indeed, the word of God is perfect. There is no flaws in it.

Mysterious Humming

10/11/07, Saturday, Rainy

I went to church with a lot of things in mind. So many things to get for my game stall during CCH! Was very rush, almost lost my cool. Good thing Elaine was there to collect all my rubbish from my mouth. Things turned out well, just that we were all super tired after a long day of preparations and actions. We had debrief till 11pm! I stayed in church for a good whole 11 hours! Thats almost around the clock with the hour hand!

We were told of the mysterious humming during the main service. All children church teachers rushed down to the auditorium to listen to the recording~ No BVs' mikes were on, no frequency caught when the voice was going on. Must be an angel, cos it sang with so much joy and peace. That left everyone in so much excitement and questions. We were so excited that God's presence was so strong with us! Now I'm sure that when we worship, Holy Spirit is singing with us too!

Question is, why wasn't I there when all these things are happening? Why am I left out when Pastor pray for G Zone? Nope! I'm not going to hate serving! I'm going to stick on and enjoy it! Exciting!

After all the excitement, we brought the topic to the prata house at Serangoon. Brother Fabian, Chek Yeow, Darren, Brownie, Charmaine, Maryse, Eric, Kang Yu and I went. I reached home at 2am. YAWNZzzz....

Purely mine...

9/11/07, Friday. Rainy

I had a long day at work... I perspired a lot more than usual today. After work, I finally get to meet Fion, but things turned out quite boring... Disappointing. Certain things have to happen. I'm so disgusted by the thoughts I have... I want to give up. I don't dare to. I know that it's God that I dare not leave. I'm nothing without Him. I just hate the thoughts that comes one after another... It never ends... I want to be bigger than all these thoughts!

Sister's Birthday!

Yupz, today's Deepavali. That doesn't concern me.
It's my Sister's BIRTHDAY!

We went to Traders Hotel for an EXPENSIVE buffet dinner!!! $6opax. CRAZY! Never had such good food in the whole of my 20years. CHOCOLATE Fondue! Never had that before too! I had such a great time with the food, I was super full!

Pictures coming up soon! I promise!

Running low on will power

I realised that when I limit this blog to readers, my post becomes negative. Everything becomes negative. The will to keep up the "I'm doing fine, every thing's great" attitude is lost.

Recently, things are getting REALLY dull... I'm beginning to think that working is fun! Being at work makes me feel alive. Today's public holiday is a bore! There's visitations, family gathering, CG meeting and sister's birthday dinner going on. Nothing appeals to me. Things are clashing like nothing.

I'm going to dress up like a clown again on Saturday! Going to be scary... Everyone's going to come and laugh. Why is it that the low periods are more than the high periods? I was on high mode not long ago, and now things are low again. All these are getting tiring...

I'm looking forward to meeting Fion & Maryse tomorrow, and Derrick & Jiewei next Thursday.
May things turn out well.

Things are getting clearer~

The effect of not tithing~ hahaha~ Yup, I can't complain. I blocked it out myself. Will open it again.

Hospitality

Everything's kinda stagnant now. Just got discipled about my unfaithfulness in tithing... Yeah man, Xin Yi's right about things. I'm just selfish. I just want to receive but not give. I fully understand the purpose of tithing now. I will do it.

What about me spending blindly on those in need? That's selfish too? Sadness la Rebekah. When will you ever be satisfied with people? Why always got so much to complain about? Yes, I'm taking what you said literally.

My JOY~

I think it's such a joy to be left alone and doing all the work we can think of. I was left alone in the administrations office's Alfresco area. I'm so glad I have my brother's lap top with me. Since I've got so much time, I sat there in front of the lap top keeping rather still. Thinking and doing lesson plans.

I used to think that I'm very free. Thats actually cos I didn't take the effort to sit down and start planning. Now that I've done so, I feel so much better about my messy schedules and life-style. There's so much things to plan for! The most important 1st. Tomorrow concert!!! Have to get all the lines and props on my finger tips... Any tiny mistake, I'll be condemned!

Rebekah, FOCUS!

NOVEMBER!~

A new month again!

Yup, I just want this to be kept away from people who are always here to read, and judge me. Everything I post, it's re-interpreted in their minds, then, posted on their blogs about what I posted. As much as I didn't want them to read this, I'll not read theirs too. Keeping myself away from temptations. Temptations to get angry and over sensitive leading to insecurities. I still have difficulties getting over things... I hate it. Still trying...

This blog is open to:

• Gynn
• Kesh
• Maryse
  
• Bryan Yee

The few whom I trust.

Pastor's right!

Keeping that hatred isn't good for health spiritually and emotionally. What for let something so insignificant bother me so much man! Got to be bigger than that Rebekah!

It was once told that, when we're born again in the spirit, we do not have dreams of this world and emotions. Yup, all emotions and feelings got to die! Hate is a feeling... So, it must die! Muahahahaha!

Something better to talk about:
Overnight with G Zone in church was exciting man!! Best part was when Samuel, Davis and I get to go into the Studio to jam and worship God. Davis tried the drum set, but was told off my Chek Yeow. That was already 5am. When the rest of the world was asleep. Samuel had to rush off to camp for IPPT at 5.30am. Davis and I continued jamming till 6.30am when both of us felt the fatigue rising up.

WE WERE THE 1ST TO WAKE UP AT 8AM! That's equal to no sleep at all! Still, I have to go to work at 1145, for the children's year end concert, full dress rehearsal. Which turned out...COOL~ The kids got everything in their exciting brains! Everything went excitingly well! Their costumes are BEAUTIFUL! Bryan Heng(4), got the most lines and actings memorised NATURALLY! So proud of him!

Elaine and I rushed back to church at 6pm, to catch whatever that is left of Saturday's service... Which is... 30mins left... That's equal to missing the whole service!!! ARGG! Sermon CD were not available for the service too! However, I believe I caught the most important part of the sermon... To be simple! Yes! To be simple.

I come to learnt that... All complications starts when 1 person allows insecurities(fear, sensitivity and emotions) to set in. That's all that is in this world! Full of insecure people! Thats why the world is filled with complications. Good thing there is Holy spirit who taught Pastors, who taught Leaders who is teaching us(the insecure people), the right way to go.

This is where I discover myself and the people around me more and more. Where there are people, there are problems. More people, more problems but more chances to discover and grow! I thank God for you.

So real. So adorable!

Bryan Heng(4): Ms Chua, I want to go back to class to drink water.
Ms Chua: Ok, you go then. But don't have to come back already. Cos I'm giving out the lollipops soon, then I'll send everyone back to class. (Kidding Bryan Heng)
Bryan Heng: Erm... actually, I don't feel thirsty already. I was just kidding you.

Haha!~ He's expression is so cute!

Another boy, Shank Kim(4), was best behaved since his 1st day in school cos he won't allow the points we implemented on them to be deducted. Once all the points are deducted, the lollipop we promised will not be given to him.

Kids are so real. So adorable.

Too much~

I need loads of rests. Not going to reply. Not bothered.

Hung out with Jiexin and Sylvia. I got a precious sms from Jiexin

• Dear Father Jesus. I pray for Rebekah as in this season of time of her family crisis let her think that its a test from You. Oh Lord I pray that You will give her strength to pull through. We know that You are faithful and that You will guide her through this season and not only her, but her whole family as well... Thank You Father, in Jesus' name I pray Amen.

Sylvia is another encouraging one. She kept assuring me of all the lies I got from this world and their acidic words are definitely not true. I am not what this world says I am. I will not take in your lies and say, "that's me". I have a Godly family! Where I can be open to my leaders and know that they will not leave me to die. Instead, lead me on by handling situations with the correct approach and replies. Doing the right thing is definitely better than confronting the situation head on, giving the devil more chances to condemn me.

My world will know what you've done!

I learned a lot... I still need time to master it... With self-control given by God, I know I will get it right in no time! The fruits of the spirit takes time to grow. Takes time to cultivate.

So saved!

Today's message and yesterday's Zone G meeting was ULTIMATE! I am so proud to be in this church. My pastors love us so much! Every word preached were so specially structured! To teach, to correct. I definitely heard very well about my part.

It's not easy to sit in there and be attacked at the same time by evil words... condemnations. Fighting all negative thoughts with the grace of God is CRAZY!

Coming BOLDLY to the throne of grace!

I boldly approached Pastor How today too. I had to thank him for the message! Pastor How was SUPER encouraging! He told me that everyone is good people in church. At first, I can't believe. But since I've decided to stay on and fight with Pastors and leaders of this church, there should be trust. Yes. Since Pastor said so, I believe! Pastor also mentioned that the reason Zone E hasn't been growing is because we're generally too inward minded. Not forgetting G3 who are actually E5. I personally feel that this message is for Zone E.

Pastor How: Rebekah, you need to be more confident ok?
Rebekah: Yes Pastor.

My pastors preach the truth! Not what people like to hear, but what people NEED to know. I'm here. I'll change. Not because of people, but because of the love of God!

Getting more exciting!~

Be it work, church, challenges or problems, every thing is getting more exciting now!

WORK:
There was a rehearsal yesterday at work for the upcoming year-end concert. I saw how each teacher of individual classes started... From, "how? What to do? Will they be able to do what we have in mind?" to, yesterday's total success during the rehearsal was a great comfort to all the teachers. The only thing that we're all unsure about is if the children will freak out on that the actual day! hahaha~

The theme of the concert is, "The Father's Heart". Taking the parable of the prodigal son and making it into a musical cum skit. The lead actor, Bryan Heng(4) is SO natural, that I felt like crying when the prodigal son became poor and pitiful. Although all the actors and actress still need promptings of their lines, their natural being brought down the presence of God. I'm sure many parents will be touched on that day! I'm so excited to be part of this event.

It's going to be SUPER busy and chaotic, but all this will bring in excitements and a sense of satisfaction in the end! I LOVE CHILDREN! The principal has so much faith in young people. Elaine and I are just going to stick with her as long as she's still there!

CHURCH:
YES!Zone G!~Definitely a place I'll place all my support,time and energy in! Never feel so sure about this before. Hang outs will be so much freer! No time limits, no burdens. Friendships from E1 will keep going on man!(those that are broken, leaving it...) There's no differences. We're all in the same church. Relationship is what we have built. ^_^

CHALLENGES:
Surely, new zone, new CG(in fact, its the same group of people I'm originally placed with)of cos, new challenges! Which I've learned to stick on and work on them till I've conquered! The stubborn Rebekah will be even more stubborn in facing all that are coming.

PROBLEMS:
Same problem, changed attitude. No longer afraid of it. With God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! I am NOT running away from it. No one's perfect! The phrase, "you ain't perfect" is super true! It applies to every pair of feet on this earth since the beginning of all times! Except for Jesus'. Devil, you are not able to put me down with words in fact, it will push me nearer to God and I'll come up stronger than before! Conquering...conquering...CONQUERED!

Yup, it's the new phase all over again!

Sister Mae Ann

• Patient
• Understands everyone's behavior. Instead of condemning them, shows love and kindness. Helping them to move on.
  
• Observant: Able to notice every little expressions on the children's face. How each child's face will light up when people around them decides to include them.
  
• PRETTY!~
• Capable
• Spiritual

What was preached during Children Church was POWERFUL! Even the teachers cried. "Will you step into my world?" Jesus changes all plans just to want to step into a person's world. Eg, Zaccheaus the tax collector. Jesus was just passing Jericho to go somewhere else. He stopped at Jericho, stayed over at Zaccheaus' house just cos He love! That changed Zaccheaus' life forever!

It only takes one person. Watch out for people around us. Someone is crying in their hearts saying, "will anyone step into my world?", "will anyone be bothered to look my way?" and "I need a friend, will you be my friend?" It's in their eyes!

Yes, I will be a friend to them. Yes, I want to step into your world. Yes, you are my friend.

I have great leaders around me! I will be SO open to them! Nothing to hide~ I am who I am.
I LOVE Children Church, Guest Room Hospitality and G3!

No more nonsense!

So inspired by my cousin's blog. Yup, no more nonsense from now on. Just look toward what is greater than this world, and all the problems that puts us down will be lifted up. Things are turning for the better. It's NOT difficult to drop all things for God! Easy, easy, EASY!

What is your manifesto? Check this out on - http://singhian-mylife.blogspot.com/

My favourite blogs are Garrett and Sing Hian's!

Fries~

Best fries is found in Pasir Ris!

HALLELUJAH news! & The Rest...

It's 1am now. I'm SO glad, I can't wait for tomorrow!
Half of what December will bring is here! I don't have to wait till December! All new!

Yang XinYi: Hi, CG mate!
Queen: I'm so glad to here that from you!

That was the most refreshing thing I've ever heard since I stepped into hoGc. It's happening next week! I don't even have to wait for another week! hahaha~

For the rest of my darlings, we're still in the same church! Hanging out is still possible. This is a HALLELUJAH change! We're all going to go up to another HALLELUJAH level!

Winnie and Davis made my day HALLELUJAH! Was a great time fellowshipping with both of you! More to come!

HE heard me scream... HE saw all that is happening... HE saw how dread I was. It's time to let go and let God.

The rest, they kept asking... They are also the few that I can't bare. What this change will bring is greater than what I can hold on to. I can't wait to see the future! Where's the difference? We're still in the same church! We're still loved by the same leaders, pastors and God!

POWERFUL!~

My superior mentioned,

• Having a high enrollment rate and not being to expose the children to the Word of God is pointless. We'll rather have the presence of God than fame.
  
• We shall not be detoured by other people's comments.
• Till the day, MOE bans all schools to teach God's word, we will not stop.

Everything just spoke to my life. Thats exactly what I want to do! To have a centre for the young, where every child is exposed to the presence of God. Brought up in a positive environment. A positive working environment for my team. Everything's working towards that.

I feel so energized!!!

I'm so glad I have such a spirit filled boss. She believes in the next generation. She believes in us. The youths. She kept giving me chances and opportunities. She taught me a lot. Her patience abounds!

I will wait. No matter what. I will wait upon Your promises.

Children's Day!

Had a funny day at Charlotte's place with Krystal. Kept laughing at I don't know what. Charlotte can make big bucks being a joker! HAHAHAHA!~ They made Keagan, Klaudia and Joseph's children's day card. B-E-A-U-tiful! While I stick my eyes on my unfinished book, falling asleep from time to time.

Met Gynn for dinner at Seoul garden!~ Super long time since the last time I went! She complained. I listened. She talk. I cook. She'll get better. We're each other's emotions trashcans! haha~

Tomorrow... Fransisca and Kellie! I need to meet them again! They were my buddies! I neglected this part of my life while getting back on track after that heavy fall. I'm back now! Can't wait to see a better tomorrow! I can foresee thunderous laughters!~ WAHAHAHA!

Where did my time go?!

Finally I get to update again. Been lacking sleep and finally, I've replenished all the time I've stayed up to... I don't know do what. Anyway, It's great to feel super alive again!

It's 1 year anniversary to:

• My time in early childhood career.
• My condition...

God is in control. Whenever I call out, "Shepherd, come to me. I need you. Come and help me." I know He'll definitely come and lift me through. When resentment, bitterness, self-pity and fear talks, I will develop the ability to shut them off with the power of the Holy spirit.

I can't wait for service to start! 41st day, Pastor How's powerful message! I don't believe I won't be renewed today! I'm ready to receive! I'm HUNGRY!(physically and SPIRITUALLY!...)

I learned~

We can worship without being able to be a praying warrior. A praying warrior definitely can worship!

While Maryse and I were doing our reading in the Pre school, Boon Kiat entered. Soon, Maryse need to go, and Boon Kiat started doing his QT. In the cry room just next door, a CG was having worship session. God's presence overflowed into our room and soon Boon Kiat started worshiping too. While I read my book with more anointing both from the author and from my environment. I'm suddenly reminded of the times I just started my walk here in this amazing church. Those were the times that I'm not distracted by other unnecessary things. Those were the times I'm most secure under a great leader. Thats exactly what I've been looking for since I lost it. Now, I'm working towards it again.

My Lord will lead me there as I keep seeking.

The book I was reading was, Hinds feet on High places by Hannah Hurnard. It was GREAT!!! The content is SO true! So encouraging! There's so much in stored in this book~ Taught me so much! Now I know why my leader wants me to get it. Names of the characters in this book are so CUTE! A MUST GET!

How often do u see me with books besides the bible and my notebook since I step into church?Hardly huh?~ hehe~ I read the 1st 5 chapters in 1 breath!! Being a naturally slow reader, that's something I've never done before! Exciting book can?!~ hahaha it's only $13.90 from Generation bookstore!

Charlotte Chan~

Here it goes! 50 words!~

10 Sep 07, 01:44 charLotte: OF COZZ ! HAHA ! CHAN ALWAYS ROCKS !!!!!! 11 Sep 07, 00:05 Queen: Hanna!~ hahahaha~ 11 Sep 07, 23:27 charLotte: i hate tmr ! blog abt me !!!!!! 50 words! 12 Sep 07, 16:01 Queen-Char: Eh~Can I act blur about that tag?! haha ok la ok la~ coming soon la~ planning the script now!!! Big project from charlotte must plan 1! hahaha 12 Sep 07, 16:25 Queen-Char: the difficult thing is... cannot be more than 50words! hahaha This girl is such a happy nut~ Laughter is funny like nothing else! Everybody knows that~ Super real. Nothing to hide. She is what you see. Super sincere! I like that!~ Ah siao~ hurry up set up your pc and read this! Naughty girl! We'll get through all these soon! You're such a joy! IKEA!! WHEN?! I want the meatballs! wahahaha~ p.s : Got 50 words already?! hahaha~ Kidding la~ You'll hear more when I see you~

Fearful~

I admit, I'm terrified around you. But a sense of Godly fear always comes immediately after I'm reminded of you. That leaves me in a presence, full of joy and peace. Today, that fear was immediately transformed into an ability to sense the presence of God quite readily.

It kept saying, 'be still and know that I am God. Every thing's in good hands.'

God is good all the time. All the time, God is good!

I wonder who's next in line. So excited to find out! hahahha~ I love people. Good or bad. Everyone deserves yet another chance! Everyone deserves to be loved cos' God loves us unconditionally! I can't wait to see the more spiritual us. Going to be great! Till then, we'll all be SO mature, SO secure! God, will lead us there! ^_^

Rebekah: "It's been a long time God..."

It's been a long time since I thought that doing quiet time is such a joy. Everyday with Jesus is amazing! Through it, I was reminded, captivated and now, I'm so inspired to throw everything else behind and keep moving up~

Worship session was randomly amazing~ It's been a long time since I last prayed so strongly in tongues that I felt a breakthrough in the atmosphere! People cried, people smiled when God moves around us in the room. Maryse said that she saw God in her spiritual eyes. HE is huge! God was lifted up!

Yang Xin Yi prayed for me and it was TOTALLY HALLELUJAH! Yes, I will not be limited by people's words.~ I am not what people say I am. I am not what different kinds of tests defines me as. I am YOUR creation. YOU reveal my character, strengths and personality to me. Yes, I will come up stronger and even hungrier for YOUR presence! The unlawful hunger!

Wisdom tooth / Lame days are MY kinda days!

My 1st wisdom tooth! hahaha~ Late or what... Anyway, eating is a chore now. This half grown thing in my mouth is irritating! Now I feel dizzy. My head feels like it's cramped. What a slimy feeling...

Anyway again... I was so sleepy at work today, that while filling up the content page of the children's communication pouches... I fell asleep! haha~ while my eyes are closed, my hand's still able to write! After a second... I snapped back to consciousness and found the row of words rather untidy. Laughed at what I just did in the room by myself. How silly is that~ haha!

Yesterday, and the day before yesterday (Monday and Tuesday) was great la!~ I hung out with a few friends on Monday. From... I shall not tell you~ Hehe. He, she and I went out on Tuesday! Package A was the route we took.. haha~

Yes yes ok.. Package A - CityHall, walk pass esplanade, go to the very nice Spinelli cafe, and then to the ACTS bookstore(The book store i mentioned on this space about 1million yrs ago?!) then back to City hall for half priced cakes at Cafe cartel. But in the end, we end up going to the prata house at Serangoon. It was fun still~ It's the people we're with not the place we're at. It's the 2nd time he, she and I went out. I mean just the 3 of us... But we always had very nice chats and exciting things to plan for!

Oh if you're wondering... Yes, there's another package. Package B-Cineleisure, get a room to hang out and talk. In the room:TV, PS... and I don't know what. haha~ Some slackable place la. Since I suggested Package A, he suggested Package B. She had to chose which to go for. Package A! haha~

Lame days... but I like! hahaha~

Whatever it is...

I'm glad. Thanks~ From all these, we learned, grew and will forever be stuck on our hearts. ^_^ Manz... My head really hurts now... Whatever it takes, whatever the cost.

SLEEP! I'm coming! wahahaha~

Dis-interested~

A few weeks ago, nothing in church excites me. Today, things just burst off again! Sermon was really great! It's been a long time since I last felt the presence of God so tangibly. A new start. New motivations. I've tried doing things in my own way.

The result: I am limited. A LOT of things I cannot do with my own strength.
The solution: God, Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit.

People come, people go. Whoever that's worth to keep are still here. Oh well, I'll just make sure I move on... God be the solution! We will be Your hands and be Your feet!

Clean and Clear!

Yup, things get so much clearer after knowing so much from Gabriel. Things get so much cleaner after a hearty chat with Gabriel again. Haha~ You're the man la~ My brother is so fortunate!

EVERYBODY! Gabriel is a great person!! ^_^

Laughed!~

When laksa is in sight, the last thing you should do is to touch your eyes till everything is disposed, and hands are washed THOROUGHLY!

Anyway, I went to the vegetable and fish farm today! All they kept complaining about was... "is there aircon?" Kids nowadays are so fortunate! They don't know how.......and the same old nagging goes on. For goodness' sake, release them from the 90s~ These are the modern, high class, well trained children~ They don't play with 5 stones or hop scotch anymore.

Watching the children catch longang fishes is exciting! haha~ I caught a few too. They just enjoy feeding the fishes... In the end of the day, each brought home a small fish tank that contains 2 goldfishes. I had my share too! haha~ Mine are call, Jimbo and Zimbo, the spoiled brats! Since they will be SO spoiled by me! WAHAHAHA!~

Question: Will goldfishes grow up?
I think mine will grow horizontally and become shinier. Tetra(The brand of a fish food) is my no.1 choice! The healthier choice~ WAHAHAHAHA~

These kids are so adorable. Their actions are so uncensored! So unguarded. haha~ I've not laughed this much since July started! Not at them, with them! WAhahahahah~ I love children!

Wait. I will!

I CAN'T WAIT

• for the sun to rise again
• to see the children again
• to bring them out for excursion!
• to hear them call my name with excitement!
• to see myself grow from all these
• to see what will happen next
• to witness the ending of all these
• to witness what God has planned for us after all these.
• to WAKE UP and find all of us at the next level!
  

I WILL....

• hold on
• keep bearing all the things said about me
• keep forgiving
• hack care about what people's rubbish brain think I'm trying to do.
• focus on the bigger enemy.
  
• most of all, focus on God!

I'll choose not to deny your goodness.

Another CRAZY day with Charlotte!

Charlotte's a great company la~ I love this girl. She naturally knows what to say and what not. So young, yet so careful. I understand, young lady~ ^_^ Stick around! Things will change during this month. A major change will happen in December. I can't wait! 3 more long draggy months~ wahahahaha!~

Charlotte ROCKS my life la!~ If I didn't go, I really don't know how to die man~ haha~ MOLDY bread! Irritating brat! haha~ Mad gAy is shameless!~ haha~ Oh, and Shi Shi!

I took a silly test at Charlotte's place... It's freaky! Haha~ Disgusting too... Why his name?! MY goodiness!! HAHAHAHA~ Please hor~ It's now the greatest secret of my life! haha~

Forgot!

Haha yes~ i forgot to blog about yesterday! I got my course registered! I'm a STUDENT! haha~ He came with me. Worhahahaha~ Thanks young man! You're the best la~ Anytime, anywhere.

It's sad la... got to leave you alone for a period of time. Things are getting out of hand. I got to make a point to protect all the angels around me. Getting difficult. I left the God factor out... Silly me.

Ratatouille and Random issues~

I watched it ILLEGALLY! haha~
1.12pm what am I to do now? NO! I don't want to pack my room, closet and table! No no NO! Feel like going back to sleep.

Zi Heng mentioned: "Happiness is enhanced by people around us. Not depended upon others." I thought... HOW TRUE! ^_^

Can't be there tomorrow... Got to work... Happy board gaming people! ^_^

Garrett Lee

• He protected everyone of us.
• He knows we'll make mistakes.
• He's ready to guide us and bring us through it.
  
• Put all our interest into consideration.
• Be it selfish or not. (I'm sorry mine was selfish.)
  
• He love us so much!
• The last person I'll ever defy.
• Emotions, setbacks, troubles, he took it all and hide them under his wings.
• Keep us away from the wrong side.
• Just a call or a sms, and he's there waiting to hear from you.
• Help us to look at things in a different perspective.
• Things can be better. Things can be changed.
• He look the knife away from me.
• Constantly leading me back into our heavenly Father's arms.

I know your worries. I'll do it. Thank you Garrett!

Hospitality! Stronger! Simple...

Great day in the administration office today. WHOLE day! The open space hospitality area was BEAUTIFUL! Pleasant day. Got a chance to hear from different leaders. Amazing! Their lives are exciting! So open, so transparent. No little actions or little talks.

Pastors were cool too. Pastor Lia never stopped having some exciting actions. Pastor How is just so amiable. Can't wait for the next hospitality duty again! I'm glad I decided to commit my full day to Guest room hospitality today! Finally, I can say, I served wholeheartedly! ^_^

I'm stronger now, than where I've started. I've gain ability to choose. Thank God. Thanks Pastors. Thank you leaders! Thank you Maryse, Krystal, Bryan and many more! (Not convenient to name them la...) I'm stubborn enough to stick around for a life time! I'm thick-skin enough to face difficult people head on! I'm stronger than you think I am.

I'm a simple person. I'm very expectable. I don't know how to use little tricks. My brain is blocked against those tricks. Will never be able to catch it. I like, I say. I don't like, I also say, just that things are going upward now.

I don't play with people's emotions. Causing them to feel bad about themselves. Or attract attentions. Along the way, creating "???" in other christians' faith. I don't force my way through. Unless it's necessary. If it's blocked, than leave it. Now that I know it's all fake, it's brainless to keep feeling sorry.

Fake people... Just go and create your own scripts and dramas please.

I know that you're a sincere person. I'm not angry. I'm not upset. We all fail at times. I'm sorry that when I failed, I fail you too. You're still my friend. I still respect you. I'm attracted to sincerity! Sincere people makes me want to know them better ^_^

DAYTONA!

They said,

• It's huge! (Duhh...)
• It's exciting!
• Pastors played too!

PASTORS played too?! Must play today also! WooHoo!!

YOU!

Can't do anything to me. I'm secure. It's mutual. You're SICK! We're conquerors! No weapons formed against us shall prosper!

Coincidences

Coincidences in human context. Spiritual attacks in the spiritual realm. For this case, it's spiritual. Everything just happens in the same period of time. The same cycle. Coincidences are disastrous at times. Causes a human brain to think too much. When it happens, humans really won't know what they will do. The words spoken are destructive to the spirit and soul. Many times, unreasonable.

I'm not afraid. I make mistakes. It's irreversible, but life still goes on. Got to face it. Deciding to disappear is the last resort. You're going to see my face till even after death. We're in this for ETERNITY!

I'm old enough to see the spiritual cycle. Now It's obvious. Every 1 and a half yrs, things will happen around me to force me out. Not excluding my own human faults. 20 years old. It's so difficult to come by. How about 30, 40, 50 and so on? So many more ups and downs to go through. So many more lost to face. It will definitely be more than what's been through. More difficult than all these that has happened. I've gotten up on my feet. Standing strong and not shaken. I'm not moving at all! Unmovable!

I'm sure I'm physically heavy enough to stay unmovable too. HAHAHA!
I've got joy that is down in my heart! God is my joy!

Bryan Yee Shi Song...

An angel in disguise! Nice, sharp, sensitive(to other's feelings), encouraging, great leader, full of words that motivates. Now, he's gone! Why do all angels have to go? Now, there's one less angel to look out for us. One less angel to seek to talk to.

BRYAN! We'll be the first to meet you again on 17th Dec 07! Can't wait already! December hurry up come! Why can't tomorrow be December?!

COWARD~

A coward tagged on my blog:

...: don't really care if you know me or not...

30 Aug 07, 00:29 ...: maybe eu should start blessing others..

30 Aug 07, 00:29 ...: u are such a consumer... always waiting to be blessed only.

28 Aug 07, 23:43

People around knows me well enough to counter those statements. haha~ Trying to put me down? Think again satan!

HAIRSPRAY!

Nice songs, nice moves, nice people and nice ending! Feel like getting a hairspray too! haha~

Everyone's fine except for one. My sensitive radar tells me so and all I have for you is hate. Get out of my brain! Happiness happens when you are excluded. Joy is always there whether you're around or not.

Looking forward to another day's work! Can't wait to see the children again. Children are like angels. They are able to cast out griefs and are able to bring smiles and laughter to a burdened spirit. Never missed a day without at least a smile with the children.

CAROL YEE!

Sakae buffet, POLTERGAY, TALK and talk and more talks! She's so ready to pour out encouragements on me. So ready to keep me going on.

I'm SO glad I didn't eat till I'm uber full! Didn't feel full at all~ Controlled! haha.
Poltergay's a funny movie, but I don't advise people to watch it... So much sexual scenes... I felt so uncomfortable that I had to cover my eyes and pray in tongues. WAHAHAHA~ The focus is not that I cried... It's that... it's super disgusting!

God gave me SUPER friends!

Encouraged!

This verse kept coming to me recently. Be it from preachers, friends or dad.
Matthew 6:33 - "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Bryan mentioned, "...take yourself to a whole new level."
Luke 17:6 "If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to a mulberry tree, 'Be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea,' and it would obey you."

God, please strengthen me.

Encouraged, EnCoUrAgEd, ENCOURAGED!

Other issues...

I can't make myself agree with all that you've said. Don't have to guess who. It's just not you! HOHO HAHA HEEHEE~

Music and movement workshop was fun! It's the first time I see so many women gather together. So many, it's scary. The older, the scarier. Anyway, the workshop gave me new ideas on how to bring out a concept to my students. Everything was explained clearly. Now, I really can't wait for my course to start... Why in September?! All I want to do is to concentrate on my career. It's going to BLOOM or BOOM!

Dad said...

In the lorry this morning, dad mentioned, "...I'll bring you to God tomorrow..."

Dad said that he wants to spend his Sunday praying with me. How beautiful is that? My earthly father, bringing me into my heavenly father's presence! Both fathers! I can't wait to pray with my dad, he changed so much. I want to change too... I need to change. The 3 of us will have a great time of fellowship together!

Sick, but I still can stay home with dad and DAD!

~DRAINED~

This week has been a BUSY week. Physically, mentally and emotionally drained out. Tomorrow and Sunday will be another exciting days before Monday comes again.

What to teach?? Last week of term 3. DO WHAT? CANNOT be boring...Oh, I KNOW! ^_~. I have all the weird ideas on my finger tips! WAHAHHA~ Next week's going to be fun, fUn, FUN!
(Just get used to me talking to myself on this thing.)

Enrichment courses coming up! Course starting. SO EXCITING! Can't wait to put things into my brain again! Can't wait to go for examinations again! I'll prove to you that I can!

Now, it's time for GAMES, then swimming with Krystal later! haha~ YES! I'm going to swim!

God still LOVES

Carol Yee, Linda and DAD!!

These angels guided me through with love, patience and kindness.

Carol Yee said,
" the world can do nothing to a christian who has no fear of man, but full of fear of God". Carol kept calling me for the past few days even though she knows that I've been escaping from explaining things to her. On her last call before she decides to really give up on me, I answered! I caught what God wants to tell me through her! I'll never be alone with her around! My beloved Primary schoolmate! It's been 13years!

Dad showed me Psalms 138:8. A verse that kept his life and dreams going as a young man. Now it's mine! I LOVE MY DAD!! Though he didn't know what happened, he knows what I'm going through just by sitting in the lorry with me silently.

Ms Linda kept encouraging me. She's super spiritual can! Her discernment is in tip top condition. I asked, "why didn't you start scolding me and say things like... God will judge me accordingly, or things like, you're hopeless?" Her reply was the most angelic thing I've ever heard!

Thank you GOD!!! In my most unlovable times, You still love me. You used people around me to minister to me. When it's most difficult to believe that You're still around, waiting for me to look towards You, You still love! Now I can soar like an eagle in the sky!

I Feel GOOD~ LAlalalala...

Today was good. Brought the kids out to arcade! Play like siao! JOSEPH kept punching me! Keep wanting to pluck the dead skin on my wound... I think he learn all this from his brothers! haha~ I'm more attached to the kids now!

Charmaine: Teacher Rebekah, why you so childish?!
Queen: I'm not childish. Just being excited haha!
The rest of the children in my team today: Teacher Rebekah, why are you so crazy today?!
Queen: I've always been crazy... Just that during CCH, I must act normal. WAHAHAHA!~

I love people around me! I love GOD, Jesus n HS!
He will make a way when there seems to be no way. I'm starting my course in SEPT!!! One step nearer to my dream now! FINALLY! WOAHAHAHA~

Lava LAMP!

I own a lava lamp!! It's such a joy to look at it!! SO slow and "toi toi". I think I got hypnotised by it! My new toy! My new company!

Charlotte: I want you to blog about me. I want the whole world to know I'm the best! Rebekah, must say Charlotte is the best!

Rebekah: CHARLOTTE IS THE BEST!!! I LOVE YOU!

Simple yet Fulfilling!

Today is a SUPERnatural day! haha~
People who are MOST not expected to remember, remembered!

• Yang Xin Yi, Winnie, Jiexin, Krystal, Zelia, Bryan, Derrick and Fion.
• Jin Hwee, Charlotte, Desmond, Radah and Yiling.

Went to Charlotte's place! It's not the place its the people I'm with. She's such a great host! Took care of me well! Charlotte is capable to take care of an elderly ok! Was a very usual day, but I felt good! Our 1st CCH visitation! Spent 3hrs with Joseph. Got him to do some work! haha~ He's a joker! So young, yet so funny. NATURAL! That's precious. Joseph will grow up well and love God! Yes, he will!

p.s. Charlotte, now I know how come you become so silent when you were upstairs! Flooding my friendster comment space...but I like! ^_^ THANK YOU!

The other side.

Knowing all, yet chose not to confront. Protecting.
Knowing all, and do what usually people will do, confront. Self-centered.

Anyway, GRAND OPENING was packed with power and life! It's going to be amazing! Can't wait to see our new church in 4years time! Wahaha~ I'll be around! I'll stick around no matter what. Give yourself another chance to grow. Stare right back at the problem, never give way(deciding to leave) or compromise(giving up) to it, and you WILL grow! You WILL discover the other side of you, you've never seen before. Will you?

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
In Christ alone

Other thoughts

We need to learn how to hold a conversation as though everything we say will be recorded. Not to be fake, but to be tactful with our words. It's a useful skill.

Things been moving smoothly on my side. Sadly, it's not the same for my friends.

I can choose not to bother about what's happening and lead my own life. Thats the best way out. But that's not me. I'm concerned. VERY concerned. Steps before me are blurred. Whatever solution I thought off, has a chance of bringing forth other consequences. I should have just let things evolve by itself. That's definitely not the best way

We're all concerned about you, but your ways stop us from telling you things openly. Why let insecurities led you? Why see everyone as competitions? Why make everyone shun away from you? You're a great friend. I looked up to you. Still doing so. I know what you're going through. I want to encourage you. I'm concerned, but I can't. So much has happened. So much blockage now.

May God be your source of encouragements. Keeping you in prayer.

Sianz...

I lost my cable! CANNOT upload pictures from hp... No pics=no posts! Everything become sian... I got exciting pics!! CANNOT UPLOAD!! Irritated.

2 Chioces!

You have 2 choices: Taken from a email sent by Salome Hoon.

Jerry is a manager of a restaurant. He is always in a good mood. When someone would ask him how he was doing, his would always reply, " If I were any better, I would be twins!" Many of the waiters at his restaurants quit their jobs when he changed jobs, so they could follow him from restaurant to restaurant.

Why? Because Jerry was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling him how to look at the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really makes me curi0us, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him: "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "each morning I wake up, I say to myself. I have two choices. Today,

• I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood.
• Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it.
• Everytime someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complains or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life."

"But It's not always that easy!" I protested.
"Yes, it is," Jerry said, "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice.

• You choose how you react to situations.
• You choose how people will affect your mood.
• You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood.

It's your choice how you live your life.

Several years later,
I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never suppose to do in the restaurant business. He left the back door of his restaurant open. In the morning, he was robbed by three armed men. While Jerry was trying to open the safe box, his hand shaking from nervousness, slipped of the combination. THe robbers panicked and shoot him.

Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and was rushed to the hospital.

After 18hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of bullets still in his body...I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied: "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.

The first thing that went through my mind was just, I should have locked the back door. Then, after they shoot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices. I could choose to live of choose to die. I chose to live." Replied Jerry.

Weren't you scared?" I asked.
Jerry continued, " The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and saw the expression of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'he's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.
"Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me, she asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes , to bullets' I replied. Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

Jerry lived. Thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude.

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I want to be like Jerry la!

My Sunday. Yes... MINE!

My COusins!~
























































The 3 youngest girls just came back from Taiwan. I embraced them! They're my REAL darlings~ Eliora's such a darling! Dora's the sweetest! Clara's the jumpiest!

The past 3days of Pastor Sy Roger was an ENORMOUS BLAST! I learned. A LOT! I have to say, he's my favourite speaker! Satan gets slaps in the most original way! Just get yourself back up and refuse to do what that will give you pleasure only for awhile. Look towards eternity! There's so much to share~ So little time.

Jin Hwee wants me to blog this about her: She ate 2 servings of spaghetti! Where did she get that appetite from?! She is not overweight! NOT AT ALL! This girl surprises me at time.

Last day at FTMS:

• This is the day that the Lord has made.
• Can't wait to move on.
• This is the place where lots was taught, trained and made to change.
  
• We're all going to miss this place.
• Happiness and heartbreaking times.
  
• Everyone took pictures. Where's mine?~

I spent my past 1yr and 6mths here. All I can say is, IT'S WORTH IT! Moving on to greater heights. A lot more to explore and learn. I've not known myself well enough yet. God, reveal to me my full purpose!

TRUST?!

Went to Henderson with Elaine today. She told me a lot about the earlier times of hoGc. Aasta and Agnes. I walked on the road where they laid before breathing their last. We talked about the 1st 9 stones. What they went through and how things went by. Elaine's great man! She brought me to the hawker where hoGc youths use to hang out at. I feel more connected to whatever that is in happening in church now.

Everybody have their own set of point of view. Everybody's point of view sounds correct. Everybody have their own way of interpreting things. Especially when they are influenced by different group of people from you.
What's important is the will to pick up every brokenness, throw them to God, and move on no matter how difficult it is. Yup, don't have to keep explaining. If you cared, you will. So as to keep away from more misunderstandings.
Explain to people who care, people who are involved... The lazy way out is just, staying away and see things change... Whether for the good or for the worse. That's my point of view~ haha~ It's all so easy to say.

Anyway, what's trust? How to trust God even more? Maryse said. If there's no one you feel you can trust, ultimately, there's God whom you can definitely trust. The one we should turn to above everything else. Maryse is great too!

Some thoughts.

The People That Think They Can!
If you think you are beaten, you are;
If you think you dare not, you don't!
If you like to win, but think you can't,
It's almost a cinch that you won't.

If you think that you'll lose, you've lost;
For out in the world you'll find
Success begins with a person's Will;
It's all in one's State of Mind!

If you think you're outclassed, you are;
You've got to think High to Rise
You've got to be sure of yourself
Before you can win the Prize

Life's battles don't always go to
The strongest of fastest woman or man;
But sooner of later, the people that win
Are the People that Think They Can!

Who's to Blame?
This is a story about People named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody. There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

p.s: I'm still trying to figure out this passage too...

Don't Quit
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low,
And the depths are high, and you want to smile,
But you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out,
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick in the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seems worse,
That you must not quit.


To be continued...

Pics VOMITTED! rAnDoMlY~

ALL OF THEM LOOK GREAT!!
Who dare to disagree?! HAHA~ I love ALL these people!
I love a lot others too! but, they're just not fortunate... wahaha~ Love la love la~

The Fair Ladies!

Jiexin, Hui Yun, Sylvia and I met on Tuesday. Quite random, but was cool la! We went to watch Harry Potter... NOT NICE!! It wasn't magical enough! The whole story content was SO lengthy~ Don't know which kuku keep saying it's nice~ haha...

Harry Potter kissed for the sake of kissing! That scene was super weird. Will not discourage all of u to go experience it yourself though. Go and watch Harry Potter!! HAHA~

A K1 boy walks in and out of the classroom, into the hall where I'm always stationed in prepare for any classes coming in for lessons.

Abinesh: Teacher Rebekah, can you give me a high 5?
(Slaps high 5)
Abinesh: Another 1!
Queen: Ok!
(Slaps another high 5)
Abinesh: ANOTHER 1!
Queen: Erm...? Haha~
(Slaps yet another high 5)

Queen: Why do you keep walking in and out of the classroom?
Abinesh: Because I like you Teacher Rebekah.
Queen: Can you go back to class, help Teacher Lai Ping.

Honestly, deep down, I'm glad I brought them so much fun. Really LOVE these kids! At least they have natural gratitude. But will they grow up to be like adults?Were the adults as innocent as they were? OH Well...

Never been fresher~

Today, the air seems fresher! haha~ Couldn't wait for 5pm to come. I feel stronger, more confident and more peace! God allows us in situations to push us towards Himself. I mean, he knows trials are good to train us.

I made a mistake. I'm glad I realised it now than later. I learned it the hard way. Will not let it just pass by and let things be. I'm on my way to a better me! I'm not ashamed to lift my hands and admit that.

Hold your breath!

I've got LOADS to say. But I decided to put them all aside and blog about this. Just one thing. We've got to start to take note of people around us.

No use taking sides. No use trying to lie your way through. There is no secrets in the house of God. Who's been yacking all the nonsense in our ears and make us lost balance in judging right from wrongs. Got to get it right again! Listen to all sides of a story! Missing out any information causes great disaster!

Let's learn to filter every word people tries to say to us. Including mine!

During devotion at work today: Eli and His Woodcrafts.

Eli's hobby was to make lots of wooden dolls. Tall or short, fat or thin. Emotional or courageous. All kinds of character he made them in. Each of them have their own lives (Yes, the wooden dolls are alive!)

The more Eli made, the more the wooden world gets selfish and corrupted. They begin to label each other according to the things they do. Good and bad in the wooden world's eyes. If you're hardworking, you'll get a star sticker. If you didn't do well in school, you'll get a red spot. It's a law to paste all of those things on their bodies, so that everyone can see.

Of course, those who get more stars, felt good about themselves and vice versa.

There was a particular wooden doll name, Elias(made up) who has loads of red spots on him. He's forgetful, timid, not as good looking as the rest. Everyone thinks that he's a natural loser. Therefore, he didn't like to go out at all. He hate the look in people's eyes. The way they look at him like a loser.

One day, Elias was alone in his room again... feeling sorry for himself. He looked out of the window, and saw a beautiful girl, Minna(made up too). He realised that she got no stickers on her. No stars, no red spots. NOTHING! This aroused his curiosity. He made his way out of the house to meet the girl.

Elias: "Hi, I'm Elias. I just need to ask you a question. How come the stickers people tries to stick on you doesn't stay on your body?"

Minna: "I had a lot of red spots in the past. I hate the sight of them and in other people's eyes. I thought to myself... If Eli made me, I'm sure he would have ways to help me get out of this. Oh! I see all the spots on you too... I urge you to meet Eli soon. Why don't you just go to him? I'm sure he's able to help. Like how he helped me."

Elias thought to himself: "Why would Eli see me? He would be too busy doing other things. I'm sure I'm just a small fry in his sight. Why would he bother about me?

Knowing all that he is thinking, since she's gone through the same thoughts before, said, "Just give it a shoot. No point standing here and ponder. No harm trying ya? "

Elias decided to make his way. Upon seeing Eli, he was welcomed with a great hug. At one look at Elias, Eli knew what to do for him. Eli also knew that he would come and seek help. In fact, he sent Minna to be around Elias.

Take a bold step of faith to go back to our creator!
Eli --> God
Elias --> Our old ways, past and discouragements
Minna --> Changed man. New spiritual man.

Going well... doing well.

Feel good! This week has been great thus far. Plus tomorrow, Friday, Saturday and Sunday, it'll be perfect! Friday's going to be crazy!

Talking to someone who's mature and objective is great man! Really don't have to be afraid if I would be influenced in the wrong way. I know he speaks with wisdom and experience. 100% trust toward him. Now I'm taking things objectively as well.

No wrong conceptions. No doubts. No bad attitudes. I love people around me! YES! Every single one around me. Including you!

Racheal and Karen

Went out with Racheal and Karen on... I forgot which day. But it was FUN! Racheal is a CRAZY person. Walked from Esplanade to Raffles City. On the way, we went into different hotels' toilets to take pictures! Where are the pictures Rebekah?! They're all with Karen la... She's not ready. She's not ready to be ready. Looking for another chance to talk to her.

Today's service was EXCITING can?! I received... I can't respond. I can't tell you things. We have a evil mouth growing among us! Get ride of it before it starts to devour us! It's a DEEP one! What's the point?

Phrase of the Week:
There are a thousand reasons why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe...
-Corrine May's song

Work and Play!

Good morning song at work:

Good morning teachers,
Good morning friends.
I'm glad you are here(well) today.
We have a busy day before us!
(Because our God have made things for us)
Lots of work(joy) and lots of play(praise).

Good bye song at work:

Good bye, good bye.
To you and YoU and YOU!
Good bye, good bye.
May God watch over YOU!

Ms Chua: Goodbye children
Children: Goodbye Ms Chua!
Ms Chua: Say goodbye to teachers
Children: Goodbye teachers!
Ms Chua: Say goodbye to friends
Children: Goodbye friends!
Ms Chua: See you tomorrow
Children: See you tomorrow!

Everything that happens in between is WOO HOO!~ Kumon is great too! Working on simple sums and working against time is exciting! That's to train my brain. Need to train my brain to focus! I play games and earn money at the same time!

Work's so fun! Play is work! I love my life!

That's LOVE!

Pst How: Rebekah, how are you?
Rebekah: I'm ok Pastor.
Pst How: Are you still growing strong in God?
Rebekah: Oh~ Erm....
Pst How: Why the hesitance?
Rebekah: Erm, trying to be stronger pastor.
Pst How: Ok, tell me what's one thing that you think is hindering you.
Rebekah: Scatterbrainess pastor.
Pst How: What's that?
Rebekah: I'm very scatterbrain pastor.
Pst How: Oh, so are you discouraged by that?
Rebekah: Yes pastor, sometimes.
Pst How: Ok, Liane. Go and teach her. Minister to her. I mean it. Now.

Rebekah and Liane: Huh? oh~ Goodness. ok. Haha.
Learned that, I have not thought of the consequence the other might face if I forget things. It may be nothing to me, but to the other party who trust me to do certain things might be affected. Yup, I'll learn to see from the other angle.

Pst Lia: Rebekah, you lost weight is it?
Rebekah: Huh?! Pastor, actually I gained weight.
Pst Lia: Is it? You look like you've lost weight.
Rebekah: Oh ya. I lost some weight, then I gained weight again. So overall I looked like I've lost weight.
Pst Lia: Haha~ Encouraged to hear that you've lost weight?
Rebekah: Yes Pastor.
Pst Lia: You really look smaller. I need to lose weight too.

Dad came to fetch me home. I poured out all unhappiness at home. Felt good. Dad's great! Thank God for Dad!

But, irritating imps must always appear at home. Sometimes situations make me believe that good days don't last. Give up on me for all I care! I still have Dad, church and the trinity God! Who will not judge me for the things I do. They don't deny all my goodness when my weakness show. Thats LOVE!

EVANDERS!

This boy is such a:

-ANGEL/devil
-Darling
-Cry baby
-Brainy
-Chatterbox

He's doing more than a 3 year old can do! Super advanced. Super cute! Turned my days upside down when he's around. He laughs like a... candy floss! Just like my own son! WHAHAHA!

I reached home today...

and...
- NOBODY's at home! haha~
- played Maple. Level 13 already hor!
- found something new. 3 new arm chairs! Must be for the 3pigs at home. Sis, bro and me! Ya la, I'm the biggest of all! haha~

- thought of the new boy enrolled. I got his tears, perspiration and maybe mucus all over my shirt today. Super spoilt! Super persistant! I'm going to face him again tomorrow. Thank God all children are cute. Even when they're crazy!

Eek! What's this!

Derrick stared intensely at a corner of the screen of his lap top......

Derrick: Eek! what's this?! Dandruff?! (Flicks the flacky, white shit off his screen)
Queen: Cannot be mine. I have oily scalp.(Naturally and directly. responded without thinking.)

The Queen stopped and sensed something evil just came out of the her golden mouth.
Slaps her own head and started laughing hysterically!

Derrick had the "huh?" look (for 3secs)
Derrick started laughing hysterically as well.

Just for laughs!~
Everything's alright! Amongst all the immature little conflicts, we have little jokes that makes us forget about those things for awhile. We're still good. REALLY! haha~


PEACE OUT! again...

Holidays' Over!

Totally not ready to work! Lesson materials not done properly! Lost all momentum to work. Life still goes on. I am motivated to impart as much as I can to the children! I am such a good teacher! (Teacher with loads of crap...)

Anyways, had lots of fun and lots to bear during the holidays. An adventure like never before. This week's services were SO refreshing! After all the bad attitudes and works have subsided, we're all filled with the Holy Spirit again. Who dares to stay difficult after the encounter with God? Who wants to stay unforgiving?

EMERGE, Pst Joakim's School seminar and RedRain concert were all we were flustered about. Yet, we enjoyed every minute of it!

E1 Outing

9.30am - 3.30pm, work at SPCK.

4pm - met Fion and Hui Qi. Eugene and Yi Jie came. More and more people comes!! Maryse, Jin Yee, Jie Xin, Jin Hwee, Darie, Noah, Krystal, Derrick, Ivan and Jeremy. 15 altogether!

If was fun, it was fun, it was fun, Fun, FUN!

Fantastic Four 2:
Favourite power - Invisibility. How cool is that!
Ben and Jerry's - Slack... Talk, lame and SIAO~

Yi Jie paid a lot to learn tricks! He's professional ok!
Jeremy's natural being siao! Cool guy~

Another round tomorrow? We'll see.
Check out other links to see today's picture~ haha!

Red Rain!

My new darlings~ Darie, Marisa, LiMin, Bao Ping, Yi Jie and Eugene!
My old darlings~ Fion, Jin Hwee, Jin Yee and Maryse!(Loves them even more!)
My siao Char BOs~ Yvonne, Cynthia, Karen, Zelia, Krystal, Amandal, Joy and Hui Qi!
My siao Da BORs~ Derrick, Jeremy, Desmond and Ivan(Fantastic four reunited!)

Red Rain...
My favorite song: Oasis and Summer.
My favorite band member: David Phanstiel!
Why? Cos he moves to the beat looking shiok! He looks like the Jesus we all know from media and bible stories.
One of the most enjoyable days of my life! When I'm allowed to not care what happens around me and go CRAZY for something! I hope I lost some weight though... MUAHAHA!

People come, people go. Who really stays? I don't care who stays, I make sure I stay! That's that... I love everyone around me! I'm stretching to reach you! I really want to reach you!

PEACE OUT!

Radio

I listened to 98.7, class 95 and 93.3 today...
The conclusion: I don't like radio!

Not exactly don't like la... just, not familiar with the songs. It's nice to hear DJs talk. It feels like someone's talking to me~ haha~ Craaa zyyy!

Yvonne, yvonne, yvonne, yvonne!!! Now, I've blogged about you! haha~ Can you don't be so busy? Why ar? Fu Yo! haha

Things are WELL?

Today was well. Seminar was great. People were fun. Message was interesting. I want to ROAR!

Pastor Joakim

He is handsome! haha~ (I think all Caucasians look good!) He is spiritual! He teach simply! He is understood! He has a family who totally loves God!

I got session 1 and 2 of school seminar totally absorbed! Everything taught was clear and practical.


Session 1: Against the flow
-Think against the flow
-Speak against the flow
-Live against the flow


Session 2: ABCs for School changers
-A for Analise
-B for Bold faith
-C for Compassion and Calling on God
-D for Determination
-E for Evangelism

Was really blessed by the seminar. If you missed it, you missed it forever!! What a waste!
Now, a round of applause for me! Muahaha~