DAYTONA!

They said,

• It's huge! (Duhh...)
• It's exciting!
• Pastors played too!

PASTORS played too?! Must play today also! WooHoo!!

YOU!

Can't do anything to me. I'm secure. It's mutual. You're SICK! We're conquerors! No weapons formed against us shall prosper!

Coincidences

Coincidences in human context. Spiritual attacks in the spiritual realm. For this case, it's spiritual. Everything just happens in the same period of time. The same cycle. Coincidences are disastrous at times. Causes a human brain to think too much. When it happens, humans really won't know what they will do. The words spoken are destructive to the spirit and soul. Many times, unreasonable.

I'm not afraid. I make mistakes. It's irreversible, but life still goes on. Got to face it. Deciding to disappear is the last resort. You're going to see my face till even after death. We're in this for ETERNITY!

I'm old enough to see the spiritual cycle. Now It's obvious. Every 1 and a half yrs, things will happen around me to force me out. Not excluding my own human faults. 20 years old. It's so difficult to come by. How about 30, 40, 50 and so on? So many more ups and downs to go through. So many more lost to face. It will definitely be more than what's been through. More difficult than all these that has happened. I've gotten up on my feet. Standing strong and not shaken. I'm not moving at all! Unmovable!

I'm sure I'm physically heavy enough to stay unmovable too. HAHAHA!
I've got joy that is down in my heart! God is my joy!

Bryan Yee Shi Song...

An angel in disguise! Nice, sharp, sensitive(to other's feelings), encouraging, great leader, full of words that motivates. Now, he's gone! Why do all angels have to go? Now, there's one less angel to look out for us. One less angel to seek to talk to.

BRYAN! We'll be the first to meet you again on 17th Dec 07! Can't wait already! December hurry up come! Why can't tomorrow be December?!

COWARD~

A coward tagged on my blog:

...: don't really care if you know me or not...

30 Aug 07, 00:29 ...: maybe eu should start blessing others..

30 Aug 07, 00:29 ...: u are such a consumer... always waiting to be blessed only.

28 Aug 07, 23:43

People around knows me well enough to counter those statements. haha~ Trying to put me down? Think again satan!

HAIRSPRAY!

Nice songs, nice moves, nice people and nice ending! Feel like getting a hairspray too! haha~

Everyone's fine except for one. My sensitive radar tells me so and all I have for you is hate. Get out of my brain! Happiness happens when you are excluded. Joy is always there whether you're around or not.

Looking forward to another day's work! Can't wait to see the children again. Children are like angels. They are able to cast out griefs and are able to bring smiles and laughter to a burdened spirit. Never missed a day without at least a smile with the children.

CAROL YEE!

Sakae buffet, POLTERGAY, TALK and talk and more talks! She's so ready to pour out encouragements on me. So ready to keep me going on.

I'm SO glad I didn't eat till I'm uber full! Didn't feel full at all~ Controlled! haha.
Poltergay's a funny movie, but I don't advise people to watch it... So much sexual scenes... I felt so uncomfortable that I had to cover my eyes and pray in tongues. WAHAHAHA~ The focus is not that I cried... It's that... it's super disgusting!

God gave me SUPER friends!

Encouraged!

This verse kept coming to me recently. Be it from preachers, friends or dad.
Matthew 6:33 - "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Bryan mentioned, "...take yourself to a whole new level."
Luke 17:6 "If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to a mulberry tree, 'Be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea,' and it would obey you."

God, please strengthen me.

Encouraged, EnCoUrAgEd, ENCOURAGED!

Other issues...

I can't make myself agree with all that you've said. Don't have to guess who. It's just not you! HOHO HAHA HEEHEE~

Music and movement workshop was fun! It's the first time I see so many women gather together. So many, it's scary. The older, the scarier. Anyway, the workshop gave me new ideas on how to bring out a concept to my students. Everything was explained clearly. Now, I really can't wait for my course to start... Why in September?! All I want to do is to concentrate on my career. It's going to BLOOM or BOOM!

Dad said...

In the lorry this morning, dad mentioned, "...I'll bring you to God tomorrow..."

Dad said that he wants to spend his Sunday praying with me. How beautiful is that? My earthly father, bringing me into my heavenly father's presence! Both fathers! I can't wait to pray with my dad, he changed so much. I want to change too... I need to change. The 3 of us will have a great time of fellowship together!

Sick, but I still can stay home with dad and DAD!

~DRAINED~

This week has been a BUSY week. Physically, mentally and emotionally drained out. Tomorrow and Sunday will be another exciting days before Monday comes again.

What to teach?? Last week of term 3. DO WHAT? CANNOT be boring...Oh, I KNOW! ^_~. I have all the weird ideas on my finger tips! WAHAHHA~ Next week's going to be fun, fUn, FUN!
(Just get used to me talking to myself on this thing.)

Enrichment courses coming up! Course starting. SO EXCITING! Can't wait to put things into my brain again! Can't wait to go for examinations again! I'll prove to you that I can!

Now, it's time for GAMES, then swimming with Krystal later! haha~ YES! I'm going to swim!

God still LOVES

Carol Yee, Linda and DAD!!

These angels guided me through with love, patience and kindness.

Carol Yee said,
" the world can do nothing to a christian who has no fear of man, but full of fear of God". Carol kept calling me for the past few days even though she knows that I've been escaping from explaining things to her. On her last call before she decides to really give up on me, I answered! I caught what God wants to tell me through her! I'll never be alone with her around! My beloved Primary schoolmate! It's been 13years!

Dad showed me Psalms 138:8. A verse that kept his life and dreams going as a young man. Now it's mine! I LOVE MY DAD!! Though he didn't know what happened, he knows what I'm going through just by sitting in the lorry with me silently.

Ms Linda kept encouraging me. She's super spiritual can! Her discernment is in tip top condition. I asked, "why didn't you start scolding me and say things like... God will judge me accordingly, or things like, you're hopeless?" Her reply was the most angelic thing I've ever heard!

Thank you GOD!!! In my most unlovable times, You still love me. You used people around me to minister to me. When it's most difficult to believe that You're still around, waiting for me to look towards You, You still love! Now I can soar like an eagle in the sky!

I Feel GOOD~ LAlalalala...

Today was good. Brought the kids out to arcade! Play like siao! JOSEPH kept punching me! Keep wanting to pluck the dead skin on my wound... I think he learn all this from his brothers! haha~ I'm more attached to the kids now!

Charmaine: Teacher Rebekah, why you so childish?!
Queen: I'm not childish. Just being excited haha!
The rest of the children in my team today: Teacher Rebekah, why are you so crazy today?!
Queen: I've always been crazy... Just that during CCH, I must act normal. WAHAHAHA!~

I love people around me! I love GOD, Jesus n HS!
He will make a way when there seems to be no way. I'm starting my course in SEPT!!! One step nearer to my dream now! FINALLY! WOAHAHAHA~

Lava LAMP!

I own a lava lamp!! It's such a joy to look at it!! SO slow and "toi toi". I think I got hypnotised by it! My new toy! My new company!

Charlotte: I want you to blog about me. I want the whole world to know I'm the best! Rebekah, must say Charlotte is the best!

Rebekah: CHARLOTTE IS THE BEST!!! I LOVE YOU!

Simple yet Fulfilling!

Today is a SUPERnatural day! haha~
People who are MOST not expected to remember, remembered!

• Yang Xin Yi, Winnie, Jiexin, Krystal, Zelia, Bryan, Derrick and Fion.
• Jin Hwee, Charlotte, Desmond, Radah and Yiling.

Went to Charlotte's place! It's not the place its the people I'm with. She's such a great host! Took care of me well! Charlotte is capable to take care of an elderly ok! Was a very usual day, but I felt good! Our 1st CCH visitation! Spent 3hrs with Joseph. Got him to do some work! haha~ He's a joker! So young, yet so funny. NATURAL! That's precious. Joseph will grow up well and love God! Yes, he will!

p.s. Charlotte, now I know how come you become so silent when you were upstairs! Flooding my friendster comment space...but I like! ^_^ THANK YOU!

The other side.

Knowing all, yet chose not to confront. Protecting.
Knowing all, and do what usually people will do, confront. Self-centered.

Anyway, GRAND OPENING was packed with power and life! It's going to be amazing! Can't wait to see our new church in 4years time! Wahaha~ I'll be around! I'll stick around no matter what. Give yourself another chance to grow. Stare right back at the problem, never give way(deciding to leave) or compromise(giving up) to it, and you WILL grow! You WILL discover the other side of you, you've never seen before. Will you?

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
In Christ alone

Other thoughts

We need to learn how to hold a conversation as though everything we say will be recorded. Not to be fake, but to be tactful with our words. It's a useful skill.

Things been moving smoothly on my side. Sadly, it's not the same for my friends.

I can choose not to bother about what's happening and lead my own life. Thats the best way out. But that's not me. I'm concerned. VERY concerned. Steps before me are blurred. Whatever solution I thought off, has a chance of bringing forth other consequences. I should have just let things evolve by itself. That's definitely not the best way

We're all concerned about you, but your ways stop us from telling you things openly. Why let insecurities led you? Why see everyone as competitions? Why make everyone shun away from you? You're a great friend. I looked up to you. Still doing so. I know what you're going through. I want to encourage you. I'm concerned, but I can't. So much has happened. So much blockage now.

May God be your source of encouragements. Keeping you in prayer.

Sianz...

I lost my cable! CANNOT upload pictures from hp... No pics=no posts! Everything become sian... I got exciting pics!! CANNOT UPLOAD!! Irritated.

2 Chioces!

You have 2 choices: Taken from a email sent by Salome Hoon.

Jerry is a manager of a restaurant. He is always in a good mood. When someone would ask him how he was doing, his would always reply, " If I were any better, I would be twins!" Many of the waiters at his restaurants quit their jobs when he changed jobs, so they could follow him from restaurant to restaurant.

Why? Because Jerry was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling him how to look at the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really makes me curi0us, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him: "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all the time. How do you do it?"

Jerry replied, "each morning I wake up, I say to myself. I have two choices. Today,

• I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood.
• Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it.
• Everytime someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complains or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life."

"But It's not always that easy!" I protested.
"Yes, it is," Jerry said, "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice.

• You choose how you react to situations.
• You choose how people will affect your mood.
• You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood.

It's your choice how you live your life.

Several years later,
I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never suppose to do in the restaurant business. He left the back door of his restaurant open. In the morning, he was robbed by three armed men. While Jerry was trying to open the safe box, his hand shaking from nervousness, slipped of the combination. THe robbers panicked and shoot him.

Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and was rushed to the hospital.

After 18hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of bullets still in his body...I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied: "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.

The first thing that went through my mind was just, I should have locked the back door. Then, after they shoot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices. I could choose to live of choose to die. I chose to live." Replied Jerry.

Weren't you scared?" I asked.
Jerry continued, " The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and saw the expression of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read, 'he's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked.
"Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me, she asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes , to bullets' I replied. Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

Jerry lived. Thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude.

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I want to be like Jerry la!