NOVEMBER!~

A new month again!

Yup, I just want this to be kept away from people who are always here to read, and judge me. Everything I post, it's re-interpreted in their minds, then, posted on their blogs about what I posted. As much as I didn't want them to read this, I'll not read theirs too. Keeping myself away from temptations. Temptations to get angry and over sensitive leading to insecurities. I still have difficulties getting over things... I hate it. Still trying...

This blog is open to:

• Gynn
• Kesh
• Maryse
  
• Bryan Yee

The few whom I trust.

Pastor's right!

Keeping that hatred isn't good for health spiritually and emotionally. What for let something so insignificant bother me so much man! Got to be bigger than that Rebekah!

It was once told that, when we're born again in the spirit, we do not have dreams of this world and emotions. Yup, all emotions and feelings got to die! Hate is a feeling... So, it must die! Muahahahaha!

Something better to talk about:
Overnight with G Zone in church was exciting man!! Best part was when Samuel, Davis and I get to go into the Studio to jam and worship God. Davis tried the drum set, but was told off my Chek Yeow. That was already 5am. When the rest of the world was asleep. Samuel had to rush off to camp for IPPT at 5.30am. Davis and I continued jamming till 6.30am when both of us felt the fatigue rising up.

WE WERE THE 1ST TO WAKE UP AT 8AM! That's equal to no sleep at all! Still, I have to go to work at 1145, for the children's year end concert, full dress rehearsal. Which turned out...COOL~ The kids got everything in their exciting brains! Everything went excitingly well! Their costumes are BEAUTIFUL! Bryan Heng(4), got the most lines and actings memorised NATURALLY! So proud of him!

Elaine and I rushed back to church at 6pm, to catch whatever that is left of Saturday's service... Which is... 30mins left... That's equal to missing the whole service!!! ARGG! Sermon CD were not available for the service too! However, I believe I caught the most important part of the sermon... To be simple! Yes! To be simple.

I come to learnt that... All complications starts when 1 person allows insecurities(fear, sensitivity and emotions) to set in. That's all that is in this world! Full of insecure people! Thats why the world is filled with complications. Good thing there is Holy spirit who taught Pastors, who taught Leaders who is teaching us(the insecure people), the right way to go.

This is where I discover myself and the people around me more and more. Where there are people, there are problems. More people, more problems but more chances to discover and grow! I thank God for you.

So real. So adorable!

Bryan Heng(4): Ms Chua, I want to go back to class to drink water.
Ms Chua: Ok, you go then. But don't have to come back already. Cos I'm giving out the lollipops soon, then I'll send everyone back to class. (Kidding Bryan Heng)
Bryan Heng: Erm... actually, I don't feel thirsty already. I was just kidding you.

Haha!~ He's expression is so cute!

Another boy, Shank Kim(4), was best behaved since his 1st day in school cos he won't allow the points we implemented on them to be deducted. Once all the points are deducted, the lollipop we promised will not be given to him.

Kids are so real. So adorable.

Too much~

I need loads of rests. Not going to reply. Not bothered.

Hung out with Jiexin and Sylvia. I got a precious sms from Jiexin

• Dear Father Jesus. I pray for Rebekah as in this season of time of her family crisis let her think that its a test from You. Oh Lord I pray that You will give her strength to pull through. We know that You are faithful and that You will guide her through this season and not only her, but her whole family as well... Thank You Father, in Jesus' name I pray Amen.

Sylvia is another encouraging one. She kept assuring me of all the lies I got from this world and their acidic words are definitely not true. I am not what this world says I am. I will not take in your lies and say, "that's me". I have a Godly family! Where I can be open to my leaders and know that they will not leave me to die. Instead, lead me on by handling situations with the correct approach and replies. Doing the right thing is definitely better than confronting the situation head on, giving the devil more chances to condemn me.

My world will know what you've done!

I learned a lot... I still need time to master it... With self-control given by God, I know I will get it right in no time! The fruits of the spirit takes time to grow. Takes time to cultivate.

So saved!

Today's message and yesterday's Zone G meeting was ULTIMATE! I am so proud to be in this church. My pastors love us so much! Every word preached were so specially structured! To teach, to correct. I definitely heard very well about my part.

It's not easy to sit in there and be attacked at the same time by evil words... condemnations. Fighting all negative thoughts with the grace of God is CRAZY!

Coming BOLDLY to the throne of grace!

I boldly approached Pastor How today too. I had to thank him for the message! Pastor How was SUPER encouraging! He told me that everyone is good people in church. At first, I can't believe. But since I've decided to stay on and fight with Pastors and leaders of this church, there should be trust. Yes. Since Pastor said so, I believe! Pastor also mentioned that the reason Zone E hasn't been growing is because we're generally too inward minded. Not forgetting G3 who are actually E5. I personally feel that this message is for Zone E.

Pastor How: Rebekah, you need to be more confident ok?
Rebekah: Yes Pastor.

My pastors preach the truth! Not what people like to hear, but what people NEED to know. I'm here. I'll change. Not because of people, but because of the love of God!

Getting more exciting!~

Be it work, church, challenges or problems, every thing is getting more exciting now!

WORK:
There was a rehearsal yesterday at work for the upcoming year-end concert. I saw how each teacher of individual classes started... From, "how? What to do? Will they be able to do what we have in mind?" to, yesterday's total success during the rehearsal was a great comfort to all the teachers. The only thing that we're all unsure about is if the children will freak out on that the actual day! hahaha~

The theme of the concert is, "The Father's Heart". Taking the parable of the prodigal son and making it into a musical cum skit. The lead actor, Bryan Heng(4) is SO natural, that I felt like crying when the prodigal son became poor and pitiful. Although all the actors and actress still need promptings of their lines, their natural being brought down the presence of God. I'm sure many parents will be touched on that day! I'm so excited to be part of this event.

It's going to be SUPER busy and chaotic, but all this will bring in excitements and a sense of satisfaction in the end! I LOVE CHILDREN! The principal has so much faith in young people. Elaine and I are just going to stick with her as long as she's still there!

CHURCH:
YES!Zone G!~Definitely a place I'll place all my support,time and energy in! Never feel so sure about this before. Hang outs will be so much freer! No time limits, no burdens. Friendships from E1 will keep going on man!(those that are broken, leaving it...) There's no differences. We're all in the same church. Relationship is what we have built. ^_^

CHALLENGES:
Surely, new zone, new CG(in fact, its the same group of people I'm originally placed with)of cos, new challenges! Which I've learned to stick on and work on them till I've conquered! The stubborn Rebekah will be even more stubborn in facing all that are coming.

PROBLEMS:
Same problem, changed attitude. No longer afraid of it. With God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! I am NOT running away from it. No one's perfect! The phrase, "you ain't perfect" is super true! It applies to every pair of feet on this earth since the beginning of all times! Except for Jesus'. Devil, you are not able to put me down with words in fact, it will push me nearer to God and I'll come up stronger than before! Conquering...conquering...CONQUERED!

Yup, it's the new phase all over again!

Sister Mae Ann

• Patient
• Understands everyone's behavior. Instead of condemning them, shows love and kindness. Helping them to move on.
  
• Observant: Able to notice every little expressions on the children's face. How each child's face will light up when people around them decides to include them.
  
• PRETTY!~
• Capable
• Spiritual

What was preached during Children Church was POWERFUL! Even the teachers cried. "Will you step into my world?" Jesus changes all plans just to want to step into a person's world. Eg, Zaccheaus the tax collector. Jesus was just passing Jericho to go somewhere else. He stopped at Jericho, stayed over at Zaccheaus' house just cos He love! That changed Zaccheaus' life forever!

It only takes one person. Watch out for people around us. Someone is crying in their hearts saying, "will anyone step into my world?", "will anyone be bothered to look my way?" and "I need a friend, will you be my friend?" It's in their eyes!

Yes, I will be a friend to them. Yes, I want to step into your world. Yes, you are my friend.

I have great leaders around me! I will be SO open to them! Nothing to hide~ I am who I am.
I LOVE Children Church, Guest Room Hospitality and G3!

No more nonsense!

So inspired by my cousin's blog. Yup, no more nonsense from now on. Just look toward what is greater than this world, and all the problems that puts us down will be lifted up. Things are turning for the better. It's NOT difficult to drop all things for God! Easy, easy, EASY!

What is your manifesto? Check this out on - http://singhian-mylife.blogspot.com/

My favourite blogs are Garrett and Sing Hian's!

Fries~

Best fries is found in Pasir Ris!

HALLELUJAH news! & The Rest...

It's 1am now. I'm SO glad, I can't wait for tomorrow!
Half of what December will bring is here! I don't have to wait till December! All new!

Yang XinYi: Hi, CG mate!
Queen: I'm so glad to here that from you!

That was the most refreshing thing I've ever heard since I stepped into hoGc. It's happening next week! I don't even have to wait for another week! hahaha~

For the rest of my darlings, we're still in the same church! Hanging out is still possible. This is a HALLELUJAH change! We're all going to go up to another HALLELUJAH level!

Winnie and Davis made my day HALLELUJAH! Was a great time fellowshipping with both of you! More to come!

HE heard me scream... HE saw all that is happening... HE saw how dread I was. It's time to let go and let God.

The rest, they kept asking... They are also the few that I can't bare. What this change will bring is greater than what I can hold on to. I can't wait to see the future! Where's the difference? We're still in the same church! We're still loved by the same leaders, pastors and God!

POWERFUL!~

My superior mentioned,

• Having a high enrollment rate and not being to expose the children to the Word of God is pointless. We'll rather have the presence of God than fame.
  
• We shall not be detoured by other people's comments.
• Till the day, MOE bans all schools to teach God's word, we will not stop.

Everything just spoke to my life. Thats exactly what I want to do! To have a centre for the young, where every child is exposed to the presence of God. Brought up in a positive environment. A positive working environment for my team. Everything's working towards that.

I feel so energized!!!

I'm so glad I have such a spirit filled boss. She believes in the next generation. She believes in us. The youths. She kept giving me chances and opportunities. She taught me a lot. Her patience abounds!

I will wait. No matter what. I will wait upon Your promises.

Children's Day!

Had a funny day at Charlotte's place with Krystal. Kept laughing at I don't know what. Charlotte can make big bucks being a joker! HAHAHAHA!~ They made Keagan, Klaudia and Joseph's children's day card. B-E-A-U-tiful! While I stick my eyes on my unfinished book, falling asleep from time to time.

Met Gynn for dinner at Seoul garden!~ Super long time since the last time I went! She complained. I listened. She talk. I cook. She'll get better. We're each other's emotions trashcans! haha~

Tomorrow... Fransisca and Kellie! I need to meet them again! They were my buddies! I neglected this part of my life while getting back on track after that heavy fall. I'm back now! Can't wait to see a better tomorrow! I can foresee thunderous laughters!~ WAHAHAHA!