Where did my time go?!

Finally I get to update again. Been lacking sleep and finally, I've replenished all the time I've stayed up to... I don't know do what. Anyway, It's great to feel super alive again!

It's 1 year anniversary to:

• My time in early childhood career.
• My condition...

God is in control. Whenever I call out, "Shepherd, come to me. I need you. Come and help me." I know He'll definitely come and lift me through. When resentment, bitterness, self-pity and fear talks, I will develop the ability to shut them off with the power of the Holy spirit.

I can't wait for service to start! 41st day, Pastor How's powerful message! I don't believe I won't be renewed today! I'm ready to receive! I'm HUNGRY!(physically and SPIRITUALLY!...)

I learned~

We can worship without being able to be a praying warrior. A praying warrior definitely can worship!

While Maryse and I were doing our reading in the Pre school, Boon Kiat entered. Soon, Maryse need to go, and Boon Kiat started doing his QT. In the cry room just next door, a CG was having worship session. God's presence overflowed into our room and soon Boon Kiat started worshiping too. While I read my book with more anointing both from the author and from my environment. I'm suddenly reminded of the times I just started my walk here in this amazing church. Those were the times that I'm not distracted by other unnecessary things. Those were the times I'm most secure under a great leader. Thats exactly what I've been looking for since I lost it. Now, I'm working towards it again.

My Lord will lead me there as I keep seeking.

The book I was reading was, Hinds feet on High places by Hannah Hurnard. It was GREAT!!! The content is SO true! So encouraging! There's so much in stored in this book~ Taught me so much! Now I know why my leader wants me to get it. Names of the characters in this book are so CUTE! A MUST GET!

How often do u see me with books besides the bible and my notebook since I step into church?Hardly huh?~ hehe~ I read the 1st 5 chapters in 1 breath!! Being a naturally slow reader, that's something I've never done before! Exciting book can?!~ hahaha it's only $13.90 from Generation bookstore!

Charlotte Chan~

Here it goes! 50 words!~

10 Sep 07, 01:44 charLotte: OF COZZ ! HAHA ! CHAN ALWAYS ROCKS !!!!!! 11 Sep 07, 00:05 Queen: Hanna!~ hahahaha~ 11 Sep 07, 23:27 charLotte: i hate tmr ! blog abt me !!!!!! 50 words! 12 Sep 07, 16:01 Queen-Char: Eh~Can I act blur about that tag?! haha ok la ok la~ coming soon la~ planning the script now!!! Big project from charlotte must plan 1! hahaha 12 Sep 07, 16:25 Queen-Char: the difficult thing is... cannot be more than 50words! hahaha This girl is such a happy nut~ Laughter is funny like nothing else! Everybody knows that~ Super real. Nothing to hide. She is what you see. Super sincere! I like that!~ Ah siao~ hurry up set up your pc and read this! Naughty girl! We'll get through all these soon! You're such a joy! IKEA!! WHEN?! I want the meatballs! wahahaha~ p.s : Got 50 words already?! hahaha~ Kidding la~ You'll hear more when I see you~

Fearful~

I admit, I'm terrified around you. But a sense of Godly fear always comes immediately after I'm reminded of you. That leaves me in a presence, full of joy and peace. Today, that fear was immediately transformed into an ability to sense the presence of God quite readily.

It kept saying, 'be still and know that I am God. Every thing's in good hands.'

God is good all the time. All the time, God is good!

I wonder who's next in line. So excited to find out! hahahha~ I love people. Good or bad. Everyone deserves yet another chance! Everyone deserves to be loved cos' God loves us unconditionally! I can't wait to see the more spiritual us. Going to be great! Till then, we'll all be SO mature, SO secure! God, will lead us there! ^_^

Rebekah: "It's been a long time God..."

It's been a long time since I thought that doing quiet time is such a joy. Everyday with Jesus is amazing! Through it, I was reminded, captivated and now, I'm so inspired to throw everything else behind and keep moving up~

Worship session was randomly amazing~ It's been a long time since I last prayed so strongly in tongues that I felt a breakthrough in the atmosphere! People cried, people smiled when God moves around us in the room. Maryse said that she saw God in her spiritual eyes. HE is huge! God was lifted up!

Yang Xin Yi prayed for me and it was TOTALLY HALLELUJAH! Yes, I will not be limited by people's words.~ I am not what people say I am. I am not what different kinds of tests defines me as. I am YOUR creation. YOU reveal my character, strengths and personality to me. Yes, I will come up stronger and even hungrier for YOUR presence! The unlawful hunger!

Wisdom tooth / Lame days are MY kinda days!

My 1st wisdom tooth! hahaha~ Late or what... Anyway, eating is a chore now. This half grown thing in my mouth is irritating! Now I feel dizzy. My head feels like it's cramped. What a slimy feeling...

Anyway again... I was so sleepy at work today, that while filling up the content page of the children's communication pouches... I fell asleep! haha~ while my eyes are closed, my hand's still able to write! After a second... I snapped back to consciousness and found the row of words rather untidy. Laughed at what I just did in the room by myself. How silly is that~ haha!

Yesterday, and the day before yesterday (Monday and Tuesday) was great la!~ I hung out with a few friends on Monday. From... I shall not tell you~ Hehe. He, she and I went out on Tuesday! Package A was the route we took.. haha~

Yes yes ok.. Package A - CityHall, walk pass esplanade, go to the very nice Spinelli cafe, and then to the ACTS bookstore(The book store i mentioned on this space about 1million yrs ago?!) then back to City hall for half priced cakes at Cafe cartel. But in the end, we end up going to the prata house at Serangoon. It was fun still~ It's the people we're with not the place we're at. It's the 2nd time he, she and I went out. I mean just the 3 of us... But we always had very nice chats and exciting things to plan for!

Oh if you're wondering... Yes, there's another package. Package B-Cineleisure, get a room to hang out and talk. In the room:TV, PS... and I don't know what. haha~ Some slackable place la. Since I suggested Package A, he suggested Package B. She had to chose which to go for. Package A! haha~

Lame days... but I like! hahaha~

Whatever it is...

I'm glad. Thanks~ From all these, we learned, grew and will forever be stuck on our hearts. ^_^ Manz... My head really hurts now... Whatever it takes, whatever the cost.

SLEEP! I'm coming! wahahaha~

Dis-interested~

A few weeks ago, nothing in church excites me. Today, things just burst off again! Sermon was really great! It's been a long time since I last felt the presence of God so tangibly. A new start. New motivations. I've tried doing things in my own way.

The result: I am limited. A LOT of things I cannot do with my own strength.
The solution: God, Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit.

People come, people go. Whoever that's worth to keep are still here. Oh well, I'll just make sure I move on... God be the solution! We will be Your hands and be Your feet!

Clean and Clear!

Yup, things get so much clearer after knowing so much from Gabriel. Things get so much cleaner after a hearty chat with Gabriel again. Haha~ You're the man la~ My brother is so fortunate!

EVERYBODY! Gabriel is a great person!! ^_^

Laughed!~

When laksa is in sight, the last thing you should do is to touch your eyes till everything is disposed, and hands are washed THOROUGHLY!

Anyway, I went to the vegetable and fish farm today! All they kept complaining about was... "is there aircon?" Kids nowadays are so fortunate! They don't know how.......and the same old nagging goes on. For goodness' sake, release them from the 90s~ These are the modern, high class, well trained children~ They don't play with 5 stones or hop scotch anymore.

Watching the children catch longang fishes is exciting! haha~ I caught a few too. They just enjoy feeding the fishes... In the end of the day, each brought home a small fish tank that contains 2 goldfishes. I had my share too! haha~ Mine are call, Jimbo and Zimbo, the spoiled brats! Since they will be SO spoiled by me! WAHAHAHA!~

Question: Will goldfishes grow up?
I think mine will grow horizontally and become shinier. Tetra(The brand of a fish food) is my no.1 choice! The healthier choice~ WAHAHAHAHA~

These kids are so adorable. Their actions are so uncensored! So unguarded. haha~ I've not laughed this much since July started! Not at them, with them! WAhahahahah~ I love children!

Wait. I will!

I CAN'T WAIT

• for the sun to rise again
• to see the children again
• to bring them out for excursion!
• to hear them call my name with excitement!
• to see myself grow from all these
• to see what will happen next
• to witness the ending of all these
• to witness what God has planned for us after all these.
• to WAKE UP and find all of us at the next level!
  

I WILL....

• hold on
• keep bearing all the things said about me
• keep forgiving
• hack care about what people's rubbish brain think I'm trying to do.
• focus on the bigger enemy.
  
• most of all, focus on God!

I'll choose not to deny your goodness.

Another CRAZY day with Charlotte!

Charlotte's a great company la~ I love this girl. She naturally knows what to say and what not. So young, yet so careful. I understand, young lady~ ^_^ Stick around! Things will change during this month. A major change will happen in December. I can't wait! 3 more long draggy months~ wahahahaha!~

Charlotte ROCKS my life la!~ If I didn't go, I really don't know how to die man~ haha~ MOLDY bread! Irritating brat! haha~ Mad gAy is shameless!~ haha~ Oh, and Shi Shi!

I took a silly test at Charlotte's place... It's freaky! Haha~ Disgusting too... Why his name?! MY goodiness!! HAHAHAHA~ Please hor~ It's now the greatest secret of my life! haha~

Forgot!

Haha yes~ i forgot to blog about yesterday! I got my course registered! I'm a STUDENT! haha~ He came with me. Worhahahaha~ Thanks young man! You're the best la~ Anytime, anywhere.

It's sad la... got to leave you alone for a period of time. Things are getting out of hand. I got to make a point to protect all the angels around me. Getting difficult. I left the God factor out... Silly me.

Ratatouille and Random issues~

I watched it ILLEGALLY! haha~
1.12pm what am I to do now? NO! I don't want to pack my room, closet and table! No no NO! Feel like going back to sleep.

Zi Heng mentioned: "Happiness is enhanced by people around us. Not depended upon others." I thought... HOW TRUE! ^_^

Can't be there tomorrow... Got to work... Happy board gaming people! ^_^

Garrett Lee

• He protected everyone of us.
• He knows we'll make mistakes.
• He's ready to guide us and bring us through it.
  
• Put all our interest into consideration.
• Be it selfish or not. (I'm sorry mine was selfish.)
  
• He love us so much!
• The last person I'll ever defy.
• Emotions, setbacks, troubles, he took it all and hide them under his wings.
• Keep us away from the wrong side.
• Just a call or a sms, and he's there waiting to hear from you.
• Help us to look at things in a different perspective.
• Things can be better. Things can be changed.
• He look the knife away from me.
• Constantly leading me back into our heavenly Father's arms.

I know your worries. I'll do it. Thank you Garrett!

Hospitality! Stronger! Simple...

Great day in the administration office today. WHOLE day! The open space hospitality area was BEAUTIFUL! Pleasant day. Got a chance to hear from different leaders. Amazing! Their lives are exciting! So open, so transparent. No little actions or little talks.

Pastors were cool too. Pastor Lia never stopped having some exciting actions. Pastor How is just so amiable. Can't wait for the next hospitality duty again! I'm glad I decided to commit my full day to Guest room hospitality today! Finally, I can say, I served wholeheartedly! ^_^

I'm stronger now, than where I've started. I've gain ability to choose. Thank God. Thanks Pastors. Thank you leaders! Thank you Maryse, Krystal, Bryan and many more! (Not convenient to name them la...) I'm stubborn enough to stick around for a life time! I'm thick-skin enough to face difficult people head on! I'm stronger than you think I am.

I'm a simple person. I'm very expectable. I don't know how to use little tricks. My brain is blocked against those tricks. Will never be able to catch it. I like, I say. I don't like, I also say, just that things are going upward now.

I don't play with people's emotions. Causing them to feel bad about themselves. Or attract attentions. Along the way, creating "???" in other christians' faith. I don't force my way through. Unless it's necessary. If it's blocked, than leave it. Now that I know it's all fake, it's brainless to keep feeling sorry.

Fake people... Just go and create your own scripts and dramas please.

I know that you're a sincere person. I'm not angry. I'm not upset. We all fail at times. I'm sorry that when I failed, I fail you too. You're still my friend. I still respect you. I'm attracted to sincerity! Sincere people makes me want to know them better ^_^