Recharged!!

I learnt something important today.

Worship and being able to get into the presence of God or not is a decision.
I was sharing with a colleague (whom Peishan and I respects ALOT!) about how I struggled to worship God and feel His presence at workplace whenever we have devotion every other day. I told her, after serving and pouring out my energy and love for the children at the children church camp, only for one and a half day, immediately on Tuesday, as the teachers gathered again, I could feel the rush of strength coming in as I was also able to connect with the Holy Spirit so tangibly as soon as I start singing and worshipping God. For the longest time in church, I wasn't serving in any ministry. I also told her, it is so true that when we being to give, we are able to draw more from God.

She didn't say things like... "Ya, I agree with you." Not even, "I am so happy for you." She just told me that, to be able to worship or get into His presence or not is a decision. She also said that, to not be able to connect with God is a lie from the devil. We are ultimately made to worship God, to want to worship God.

That totally blew my mind away. It clicked in my spirit immediately. I thought, ya! I allowed devil to deceive me for SO long! I felt really dumb and cheated.

But I am so glad, God didn't allow me to remain deceived. I know that God engineered ways to want me to connect back to Him and also to let me know that I can make a decision to tune in back to Him ANYTIME and ANYWHERE!

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It was a great sharing session with my aunt. We usually have heart to heart talks at work. Since it's children's holidays, and teachers are asked to go back for meetings and setting up of classroom, we had more time to talk. We had a LLLOOONNNGGG chat AT WORK! hahaha... till she told me these...

Aunt Kelyn: You are a good girl.
Rebekah: HAHAHA!!! How come I can't agree with you about that statement you just made? I can't agree with you. hahaha...
Aunt Kelyn: To me, you're a good girl.

And tears rolled down...

I myself didn't believed that I am good. As many of you know, I always call myself a spoilt brat. A spoilt brat is what many people think I am.

Even I.