I was told that mum tried to abort me but was unsuccessful.

It's interesting how God uses all these things to encourage me. Now that I know that I was "unabortable", it's so much clearer that I am here for a reason.

You can't kill me cos' I am here for a greater purpose!

To forgive all said and done to me is the next step I have to overcome...

Rather be dead than to ask for help. People don't really want to help. They just want to feel better about themselves. If help is not topped up with gratitude as readily as the help comes, then trouble will come.