Stressed!

SOW is really tough... nevermind, I'll practice. See how far practising can bring me to... SCARED! So many pros in SOW!!! Spoil market ah! hahaha...

Finally, it's the last day of BMT(Basic ministry training) today. I'm so glad I made it through... ^_^
Rebekah, press on!

I made it!

I'm back from Phil! It was a blast! We had so much fun with the Pinoys, feeding the hungry, painting the orphanage and spending time with the children. Pastor Cleo and Pastor Cindy are the best people in Phil. God's work through their hands are really amazing. I'm definitely going back there every year with the team!

I'm still thinking of them every night. Apple, John, Lyn, Annabel, Cindy, Jean, Marc, Nelson, Johmpo, Carlo, Leonora, Finly, GG, Reah and Micheal

On top of those, I was chosen to join SOW-keyboard! So exciting! I'm taking up BMT-Basic Ministry Training again! Things are picking up. I'm still here with no strings attached except God's love and mercy on my life!

Absolutely blown away by God's work in this centuary.. Dr. Rev. Kong Hee is really BIG, ENORMOUS, HUMONGOUS! All that is said and done, shown and heard, I can only sit back and look at the whole project from my own mini view. It is really too amazing for me to digest. Sun, she is such a role model!

I can't wait for my Philippians trip on Wednesday! We are going to do exactly what Sun is doing in her humanitarian works! So exciting!

There is so much I want to do... Yet, I'm afraid that I'll give up half way like I used to... Nick Vujicic said that he is most afraid of forgetting how God has led him through the years. I too! I've forgotten so many times, backslided and hop from church to church all my life. It is really scary to go into all that again...

I am still here because God do not want to see me anywhere else out of his love. God dotes. God cares. God LOVES!

Holy Spirit keeps me going...
This is my cry, my one desire. More of You.

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and True
The God I know My refuge

Hearts are healed
Christ Revealed

The God I know
Light of the city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me

As You are
So are we

Celestial!

Was super fun! haha Jackson dressed up the most~ cool guy la~

After Celestial, we (Huiyun, Winnie, Xinyi, Maybeline, Pei Shan, Jackson, Samuel, Louis and I) went to Cineleisure's Kbox till 6am! hahaha~ reached home at about 7plus, sleep till 9plus, wake up and prepare to go to my cousin's church with Careen. There's so much to say about their church, but I think i'll save it for other days.


Went Kbox again with my cousin Miriam... this time i was really sick of it... time passed super slowly. Miriam and I hang out till 10plus before I was to go appear secretly at Salome's birthday party... Miriam is the best la~ She and her family. They are the most giving people I see other than Pastor How and Pastor Lia.

It was really fun~ hahaha... long time no see them.(Silas, Shuwen, Jolin and Salome) was a great time with them and meeting new people (Pastor Aaron, Jack and shani) who are from SOT, School Of Theology. Amazing people doing amazing things.

It was a pleasant hang out till I found myself in my room at 1.30am! TIME TO SLEEP! I've practically not slept for the past 39hours! Tired...

its a whole new world!

charlotte's blog inspired me to start posting again

i get to relive a N1 class today. So exciting! so many small humans walking around and telling me about their new bottles, how fast they can drink water and what not the whole day! the usual 3 times a week, 30mins every time they meet me for music and movement lessons is NOT enough?

I secretly hope that teachers fall sick everyday~ so that i can have more cantact with the children... *Evil Rebekah arises sometimes~
But I still enjoy music and movement lessons with them ok! hahaha

there's this other pleasant day... havent been so pleasant for the past 1yr ++! mon. deepavali, G3 and G30 came down to church for praise and worship session. it's the most powerful CG level meeting ever in the past 2years and 9months! after that, most of us went for lunch, shop, talk, LAUGH together. 13 of us altogether. ask me how we shop TOGETHER? i don't know! we just did it! hahaha~ everyone seems so at ease. like everyone is enjoying everyone's company. we had great time bonding. n as usual, i laughed the loudest, and I'm not ashamed abt it! WHATHAHAHAHA!!! ^_^

elaine said, "no peace within self, no peace with people around you." i often have no peace with people at home in the past. well, i was super insecure. now that things are getting better, i feel much better too. think of this friends, if you feel that you've been getting into quarrels with people around you a little too often... maybe its time to check your hearts. are you having war with yourself?

relax! let the vibes go.(its an art that's a little too difficult to master.)I'm learning still.

being the the valley of "everything's alright" for too long makes me long for the submit. Sometimes, I dread being still at the same valley... this longing becomes a strength and now i'm making my way up the mountain again. LEVEL up!?

Whatever other people thinks, I
Love children!
Love life!

Birthday Card from Pastors

Tears just welled up uncontrollably. Simple words, yet full of love. How come every sentence seems to tell so much about what I'm going through. So amazed...

PS: was watching LA PI XIAO XIN when I received the card...

Most People...

Most people are different at home and outside. The only people I am sure are not like this are only Pastors. I mean Pastor How and Pastor Lia and all the other people they trust.

Behaving differently shouldn't be considered as being hypocritical... Most of the time, we're trying to be better out of home where everyone has already boxed us up in a certain mindset. Where words flow FREE and FAST. Where words like knives fly around all the time.

Home is the real place where the word of God that says, "out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks." comes to past. What you are really like, shows up at home. Which is also usually hidden when we are with others.

I am not as nice when I am at home and when I am out with all of you! (My dear friends) At least I'm honest about this part of me. Some of you might already have encountered my temper when others tries to be nasty too~ Well, who's the hypocrite then~

As far as I'm concerned, I'll try my best to face my emotions and problems readily and honestly all the time. Am human too!

RAMLY BURGER SONG!!!

I've been listening to 98.7FM for the past 1month whenever I'm free. Just wanted to expose myself to more songs and "general" knowledge. Which it did help~

THEN! I came across this song. "... Ramly is good, good malaysian food. Ramly is good, eat it like you should..." WAHAHAHA!!! I was just my at house void deck. I didn't even dare to turn back and check if anyone's behind me before I want to burst out laughing. I CONTROLLED! But shoulders are harder to control... Darn funny~ Who in the world came up with such song? SO CUTE! haha~ must have had lots of revelation abt Ramly Burger...

I used to think people who listens to radio all the time are rather pathetic... Now, am doing the exact thing I thought was pathetic. I refuse to say that am pathetic though, I think radio's really interesting! Really builds up your knowledge about the entertainment world.

P.S I'm not backsliding~ hahaha!!!

So Encouraged!

It's 1.30am now. But I just need to get up and type this down before I forgot to show gratitude...

Linda, Joan, Ronal, Joyce, Liane and Samuel!
So many people spoke words of life to me today. I feel so charged up now! I really want to thank God la... Who else can give me such positive environment? Who else can bring me through the valleys of my life that I may once again see the goodness of summits. Such a pleasant day today. Everything seems so on the right track... I really hope I'll never need to go through the valleys again, but as Liane said, it WILL come again. But I know when it comes, I'll be stronger than before.

Gynn and Cui Ling, you've seen me fall and rise so many times during our days in secondary school. You've seen how much I've changed. You've seen me when I'm most insecure. You saw me improve in all areas. You've saw how I gain confidence. Both of you should be the last to deny God's power, plans and love in my life. All these can be in your life too! Cos I've been through it before and I'll get through it again! I've tested and proven it for you! Now it's your turn to taste and see that God is good for yourselves! I love you!

Then I got a chance to...

There's devotion every Thursday at St Paul's Kindergarten. Today's our turn(Elaine and I) Sharing my revelation about God after I decided to come back to stay. It was simple... was really careful with what I want to share. Makes sure that I don't say anything inaccurate. I shared that Eve was ALONE when she was looking at the fruit of knowledge of good and evil... in fact, SHE WASN'T! She was with Adam! Genesis 3:6 - ...... She also gave to her husband WITH HER, and he ate.

I was corrected on the spot. I'm glad I was! If not I'll be guilty of sharing the wrong word from the bible. Now I can be more sure than anyone else about this...

I love You Jesus, deep down in my heart! So deep that it gets pumped out and into the blood streams now its all over my body! I don't ever want to go through having bad attitude and ideas about You again... It's terrible... Keep on keeping on Rebekah...

If you are not a believer, WHY NOT?! It's so weird to not be a christian! It's a norm to believe, trust and depend on Him! The TRINITY GOD (Father, Son and the Holy Spirit) My God is so cool! There's no scandals in Heaven! My God is PERFECT!

Lost and Found

Lost my old hp... Found a new hp... Considered lost and found? haha~ Anyway... today's a bad day... Tomorrow's going to be a GREAT day! At least better than today... OH WELL~

One thing good though... Natassha and I clicked in the......(I don't know what)! Something is moving in this friendship with her! So exciting! We're so GAM! Sometimes there's no such thing as "I've known him/her long enough".

There's no such thing as... we SHOULD encourage one another. We actually WILL encourage one another when there is love, respect and trust. It's natural... An it's a miracle when both person has love, respect and trust for each other. Mutually.
(Correct me if I'm wrong...)

I'm inside, outside, upside, downside, happy all the time! God HEALS!
God is Good, all the time and all God's children say, AMEN!

I think I know...

I think I know what kind of people I can clique with. Mainly, the 1st child of their family.eg, Chris, Randy, Joanne, Salome, Natassha, Maryse... Of course it's not definite. People like Gynn, Cui Ling, Charlotte, Derrick, Elaine, Joyce, Ms Chua, and a few others whom I'm not sure if they feels the same. Haha~ Don't make myself lose face... But honestly, it's nothing much to lost face about. -_-"

Anyway, I kinda like this calmness in my life now. Everything seems to move on smoothly... there's also this sense of ability to gain more in life. As if, I am naturally made to move on and to achieve more than this calmness... AHhhh... there's such anticipation in my life... there's this security that sets in firmly... like something great is going to happen. (I hope it's not the negative "great")

I did better than I thought for my assignments! Though still feel kinda disappointed with the result... an A+ for Philosophy Group Project and only a B+ for Individual Project. Maybe it jus shows that I work better in a team~ hahaha... We'll see.

Becoming more cautious

Hey all, please help me scan through(if you are that bored ^^) to see if I have any pictures of children in my work place. I've been ignoring the seriousness of posting children's pictures without permission. I better start doing things about it before I get into trouble. Thanks!

Anyway, LOADS of things! Gynn's 21st birthday present and cake. James' wedding dinner(Should I or not?!) Hp bills. Clothes. Laptop. Where to get more $$. I'm sure there's more. This month's pay is used up! It will get better next month! It must get better...

P.S. Still working on that "post-it" personality...

Tioman Trip

Too many pictures to upload~ Show you all when I see you with my laptop (hopefully I have it with me when u see me...) Can't wait to show all of you!

p.s. Don't ask me about gifts... It's SUPER not ready! hahahaha~ ONE DAY it will appear before you.

What's being fervent towards God?

I saw it all on my mum's life. Being fervent towards God to me means...

• Making evangelism a lifestyle - mum burns extra copies of testimonies on CDs brought it out whenever she knows she's going to meet someone new or encourage a believer to be more connected with God. eg. the Tioman trip.
• Never fail to make a point to include God in her conversations.
  
• Able to respond with a loud and resounding "NO" when people(me) talks negatively about God.
  
• Has the "post-it" character - ok with anything. Others 1st. What can I do for you?

P.S. She's not a leader. She's not someone who does things to SHOW(without the need to make it known about what she's done-not even by casually talking about it). She just simply works and please that invisible but TANGIBLE God. She serves with ZERO pride! That's such a GREAT example!

I want to be like my AMAZING mum! please...

Fall Back

More than falling back physically(Damn painful!), I fell back emotionally and spiritually too. Everything seems alright. To others, am fine. Everything's going according to my plans. At this rate, will I end up in hell? Damn scared. Everything's ok, but not everything is wrapped up nicely. It feels like there are things leaking somewhere in my life. Though I know exactly where, yet I AM STILL NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT! I need to get up and move again. I need to get strong on the inside. I need to keep fighting. I need to flee from all temptations. I know I can. I KNOW I CAN!

but......

Pics VOmitted 3

New Lappy!!

Took with lappy cam! Gynn and I

Mum with the birthday gift from me! CJ7! her favourite toy now~ hhehe

Woo Hoo~ Looking good Gynn!

Sister and I during CNY! WOo hahaha Damn long ago.

Bro trying to imitate sis's smile~

Cute, Nonsensical Experience!

hahaha yes, as the title suggest, cute and nonsensical experience for the past 4-5months! Quite difficult to pull it out of my life though. But its good ^_^ Kinda know what's even more important in life.

Anyway, WHY AM I BLOGGING?! hahaha... Tomorrow's another day at work and school... Can't get to sleep... I had a 3hrs rest from 6pm tp 9pm. Now I'm stuck between sleepiness and alertness (if you went through this nonsense before too...)

Projects are dueing on Wednesday. HALLELUJAH! Am prepared ok! Who thinks that projects are fun!? (Rebekah thinks so!)

Got my laptop, Ipod nano, CRUMPLER!!! I AM SO MATERIALISTIC!!! I love it! SPOIL ME! I deserve it! hahaha~ Can't wait for Tuesday to come... I am itching to SING!~ Both of you have to bear with me! hehehe~

Till then~ I love everyone! YES E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E!

Am BACK!!!

Back with brand new life to live for~ NO more the crazy immature stuff we use to fight for. A little updates though... Started my course last week. It has been great... Things are finally moving on. I'm finally 1 step nearer to my dream~ Oh yes... Certificate in Pre School Teaching (CPT) is the course I'm taking. Family's good too, got a chance to hang out with brother 2weeks back... We realised that we actually don't know each other well at all~ Was a great time of fellowship... Things at home have been rather pleasant since. Someone pleasant came along and we really clicked. Going to be great friends for life, I hope ^_^ Work is great too~ Children are still my prior passion. LOVE THEM LOADS! Basically, life's been busy, bUsY, BUSY! I LOVE IT!

And my life still goes on...

We meet again! The 3 of us again. 14yrs! Addictive!

My pretty cousin Miriam.

Reunion night.

Cute~ Keegan and Timothy.

K1's CNY field trip - Chinatown and Chinatown Heritage Centre. They must touch EVERYTHING they see! haha~

K2's CNY field trip - On board Imperial Cheng Ho. Stop over at Kusu island. History of Chinese culture. Cute~