Mysterious Humming

10/11/07, Saturday, Rainy

I went to church with a lot of things in mind. So many things to get for my game stall during CCH! Was very rush, almost lost my cool. Good thing Elaine was there to collect all my rubbish from my mouth. Things turned out well, just that we were all super tired after a long day of preparations and actions. We had debrief till 11pm! I stayed in church for a good whole 11 hours! Thats almost around the clock with the hour hand!

We were told of the mysterious humming during the main service. All children church teachers rushed down to the auditorium to listen to the recording~ No BVs' mikes were on, no frequency caught when the voice was going on. Must be an angel, cos it sang with so much joy and peace. That left everyone in so much excitement and questions. We were so excited that God's presence was so strong with us! Now I'm sure that when we worship, Holy Spirit is singing with us too!

Question is, why wasn't I there when all these things are happening? Why am I left out when Pastor pray for G Zone? Nope! I'm not going to hate serving! I'm going to stick on and enjoy it! Exciting!

After all the excitement, we brought the topic to the prata house at Serangoon. Brother Fabian, Chek Yeow, Darren, Brownie, Charmaine, Maryse, Eric, Kang Yu and I went. I reached home at 2am. YAWNZzzz....

Purely mine...

9/11/07, Friday. Rainy

I had a long day at work... I perspired a lot more than usual today. After work, I finally get to meet Fion, but things turned out quite boring... Disappointing. Certain things have to happen. I'm so disgusted by the thoughts I have... I want to give up. I don't dare to. I know that it's God that I dare not leave. I'm nothing without Him. I just hate the thoughts that comes one after another... It never ends... I want to be bigger than all these thoughts!

Sister's Birthday!

Yupz, today's Deepavali. That doesn't concern me.
It's my Sister's BIRTHDAY!

We went to Traders Hotel for an EXPENSIVE buffet dinner!!! $6opax. CRAZY! Never had such good food in the whole of my 20years. CHOCOLATE Fondue! Never had that before too! I had such a great time with the food, I was super full!

Pictures coming up soon! I promise!

Running low on will power

I realised that when I limit this blog to readers, my post becomes negative. Everything becomes negative. The will to keep up the "I'm doing fine, every thing's great" attitude is lost.

Recently, things are getting REALLY dull... I'm beginning to think that working is fun! Being at work makes me feel alive. Today's public holiday is a bore! There's visitations, family gathering, CG meeting and sister's birthday dinner going on. Nothing appeals to me. Things are clashing like nothing.

I'm going to dress up like a clown again on Saturday! Going to be scary... Everyone's going to come and laugh. Why is it that the low periods are more than the high periods? I was on high mode not long ago, and now things are low again. All these are getting tiring...

I'm looking forward to meeting Fion & Maryse tomorrow, and Derrick & Jiewei next Thursday.
May things turn out well.

Things are getting clearer~

The effect of not tithing~ hahaha~ Yup, I can't complain. I blocked it out myself. Will open it again.

Hospitality

Everything's kinda stagnant now. Just got discipled about my unfaithfulness in tithing... Yeah man, Xin Yi's right about things. I'm just selfish. I just want to receive but not give. I fully understand the purpose of tithing now. I will do it.

What about me spending blindly on those in need? That's selfish too? Sadness la Rebekah. When will you ever be satisfied with people? Why always got so much to complain about? Yes, I'm taking what you said literally.

My JOY~

I think it's such a joy to be left alone and doing all the work we can think of. I was left alone in the administrations office's Alfresco area. I'm so glad I have my brother's lap top with me. Since I've got so much time, I sat there in front of the lap top keeping rather still. Thinking and doing lesson plans.

I used to think that I'm very free. Thats actually cos I didn't take the effort to sit down and start planning. Now that I've done so, I feel so much better about my messy schedules and life-style. There's so much things to plan for! The most important 1st. Tomorrow concert!!! Have to get all the lines and props on my finger tips... Any tiny mistake, I'll be condemned!

Rebekah, FOCUS!