Like It or Not - Simply Me

intrapersonal Vs interpersonal

2011-02-06T05:20:00.000-08:00

intrapersonal communication is vital in promoting a good interpersonal communication.

2010-01-23T19:09:00.000-08:00

contemplating a change of environment...

2010-01-08T04:24:00.000-08:00

Indeed, it is happening agn... I won't deny that it is not. I won't say, "who say's I'm like this, or that." I thank God for all that cared.

Still needing time to sort that shit out...

This September Holiday

2009-09-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

This week is nicely packed with all the things I like to do!!! Super excited! It's Tuesday already...~ I need the time to tick slower than usual please~

- It was all work yesterday.
- Went out to Crocs clearance sale with Mum, heading down to bugis with CEG girls night out!
- Tomorrow, Escape theme park with YYC children and The Dead Scroll exhibition with G zone! WOOT!~

I know people are envious~ kekeke...
The rest of the week just rocks my world! wah...~ every other nonsense is forgotten! ^_^

No More Nonsense!

2009-08-28T07:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah! I feel victorious! At least for now... Knowing that the next round will come when I least expect it, but at least I got through this round! ^_^

After a period of trails of nonsensical thoughts polluting my mind, I finally get to move on! I won't even dare to say if it's spiritual or not, I only know, it was definitely another chance for any evil nonsense to work in my life...

Things definitely got better, with some emotions spilling out once in awhile. (ok la, I know it's often...)

P.S I just want to say, "I am really, sincerely, apologetically SORRY to those who experienced my nonsense! You guys have been an awesome bunch of people I could lean on!" I know I can trust that my group will never judge me with my nonsense, but lead me through every shit they see from me.

I love all that has been through.
I love you all!
I LOVE my church!
I LOVE MY GOD!

...hehe... Pardon the words, that's just me, simply me. ^_^

An Amazing Experience~

2009-08-19T02:31:00.000-07:00

Well, my conscience says I can't explain too much about this issue. What I know is, what I experienced today is really precious. It really gives me a wider view of what it really means and take to serve God's children. I thank God for the opportunity to go through the whole motion and I'm keeping everyone involved in prayer... Especially that special child...

Every child puts up a guarding wall. Every child goes through different insecurities. This insecurity can really break them unless it is managed appropriately by a responsible adult in their life...

My Birthday Greetings!

2009-08-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

From Pastor How and Pastor Lia,
Dear Rebekah,

Happy Birthday!
Wow! you have been in our church for so long. Thank you for all your love, loyalty, faithful.

Respect,
Ps How
Ps Lia

From my CG and CEG,
Jiexin - Hey beckie! Happy birthday! Have a great and blessed yr ahead! Its always feels so great wif u around =) stay happy n 'nonsense' always xp keep growing in Him. love ya, sis! =)

Gina - Happy birthday to you happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to becky, happy birthday to you!

Nina - Hey becky, a blessed birthday 2 u ya!

Hui Ling - hey hey today is your birthday!! take tt spec repair as your birthday present okay... LOVE U:D n recover realli till then i cu real soon on sat

Hui Yun - Hi Becky! Happy birthday to u! HaHa. U are one yr older now. May all ur wishes will come true.

Winnie - happy birthday beky! continue to shower your infectious laughter around. Love ya. =)

Samuel - Hey beck happy bday ar! haha. keep on moving. ;) u look gd w/o specs too.

Alex - hey becky! happy birthday! may good luck follows you all day long. have breakthrough in everythin you do.

Juana - Hi Becky.. Happy Birthday! Its great to know u for u bring laughter to others.

Kelly - Happy bday.have a blessed day! Haha

Sylvia - Hey beckie... Happy birthday!!! It's been great having u in G30!!! Keep growing and loving!!! Love ya lots...

Pei Shan - Seng li chuk ha hamnida, seng li chuk ha hamnida, sarang ha neun BEAR BEAR seng li chuk ha hamnida...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! it's really awesome knowing u! U r more than a friend! :) love u many many!!! And lastly, hope u enjoy your bday! U r PRETTY la!!! :D I didn't forget your bday! Just want to be the lst to wish u! Hehe. :)

From Zone G
Louisa - Hey Rebekah! Happy birthday! We're now thw same age haha. It's been great having you as a friend! ;-)

Christine - Hey Rebekah!! today's your bday!!!! So.... Happy bday!! So glad to be around you! you bring so much joy into my life!! :) lets build a great gigantic CCH! :)

Jie Wei - Hey friend. Happy birthday!

Rebecca - Dear rebekah happy birthday!:) may love, joy n peace be with u always:)

Sabrina - Hi rebekah! This is sabrina from g2. Happy bday! :)

Yue Ying - Hello rebekah!! Happy birthday to you! It's great to be in church with you! :)

Glenn - Hi Rebekah happy birthday yo!! Love your jokes n smiles. :))

Jia Xin - Hi rebecca! Happy birthday!

From Children Church!
Qi Wei - Hey rebekah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Hahaha. You're really someone great to have in cch and you never fail to bring fun laughter and excitement to cch man. Happy birthday. +) have a great day. =)

Sheen An - Hey rebekah! Happy birthday! It's been awesome to have you around and your laughter definitely makes our day! I am sheen an from children church! :D

Yan Rui - Hello Rebekah! Im yanrui frm cch! HaPPy HaPPy BirthDay to you! May God's love flow through u and continue to use u mightily to impact e kids! :):)

Matthaeus - Hello rebekah!!! Happy bday! Ur laughter is contagious! Anyway,u're great person to be with:D Cheers!

Kesia - Hey becky! Happy birthday! Lets build CCH together for the next generation man! :) Love, Kesia

Fang Qi - HAPPY BIRTHDAY Teacher REBEKAH!! You're such a joy in people's lives especially kids love you! and you can act well, (: enjoy your special night!

Shi Hao - Hey! Happy amazing lovely wonderful birthday to you(: may you continue to be a joy unto the lives of others! :D God bless! Shi hao from cch(:

Da Wei - Hey rebekah!!! Happy Birthday!!! Ur awesomely there for e kids! Great to b serving wif u! The future is gg to be amazing! Muz b an amazing day todae yeah! =)

Joyce Khoo - Hello Rebekah.. Hey happy happy birthday!! Am really glad 2 hv known u! U hv bring so much joy n laughter into my life! Many more birthdays ahead! Yeah!

Deliz - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEACHER REBEKAH! I wish you a happy birthday!

From Friends!
Salome - Sis dear babe! Happy Blessed Bday! U'r 1 of my best sisters... So proud of u&so happy to have u s my fren! Continue to stay close to God&shine for Him! ;-D

Charlotte - Rebekah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Xin Yi - Happy birthday Becky! How are you celebrating?

Derrick - Happy birthday mother number2!

Stanley - oh..its ur bday today ah? Haha..happy birthday to u! Wishin u all e best n god bless u..haha..

Yuri - Dear rebekah tks to be born in this world ;-) Happy birthday n im sorry nt be w u 2day lets have fun some other time happy birthday;)

Shu Ping - happy birthday sister :)! Turning 22nd le.. Hehe. Wishing u happy, hopeful days everyday of ur life. Think we'll grow old tgth ya.., seeing each other in silver hair. Haha. Hope 2 chill out wif u2 :)..

Matthew - Happy Birthday Ai Yin!!! Have a Wonderful Birthday!! Dreams&Desires Come True4U!! Joy&Peace Be With You Always!! Take Care&God Bless!! Stay Happy!! <>

WOW~ I am so overwhelmed by all these messages. ALL OF YOU MADE MY DAY BEAUTIFUL! Thank you for all your encouraging messages! Thank you SO MUCH my dear friends! Love all of you LORRIES LOADS!

Some of the things I received are:
- Purple cardigan from UNI QLO (G30)
- Black with white leaf and vine print bangle from Langkawi (Sister)
- Hazel nut waffle stick (Teacher Michele and Zheng Lao Shi)
- White Chocolate coated almond (Teacher Michele and Zheng Lao Shi)
- Birthday card!! (Children, CG and CEG, Teacher Michele and Zheng Lao Shi)
- 2 Polo T-Shirts Black and Pink (Mum)
- 3 pairs of ear rings (Mum)
- Specs repaired!! (Hui Ling)
- LOTS OF LOVE AND ENCOURAGEMENTS!!! (EVERYONE!!!)

Well, I spent my day with mum at ION and TANGS, went bugis for steamboat and table barbecue. Bro joined us then. It was all good! Who's most appropriate to spend birthday with other than mother?! It's her birthday too! The day she gave birth to me! After which, Xin Yi and I drove to MARINA BARRAGE. SUPER nice view at night! KTV at Top One after that till the next morning... haha!It was a great time hanging out with her... Thank you XINYI!~ Appreciated!

Affirmative

2009-08-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

Remember the last post? Yup, right after that day, which is also on my birthday, I fell down again!! Early in the morning as well! I was walking out from Powerhouse, down the steps after coming out from the lift, I slipped and fell sitting on the steps with a painful "thup!"

Cause: No spectacles. Cannot see properly. Missed a step.
Witness: City Harvest people approaching the steps, Miao Guan and Gabriel.

NOT AGAIN! During the next power house, if I see anyone smiling at me yet not knowing who are they, I'll know what it means man!

I fall twice and bumped into an object once = 3 accidents in 1 week!
It just proved that I am really accident prone... Now I don't even know the reason why certain part of my body feels pain... AWWWOO~

Joke Of The Day~

2009-08-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

I bumped into one of the metal pole of the sheltered walkway from the white gate to church's lift...
Cracked the lens on the right of my spectacles, caused a scratch on my right upper cheek and bruised right knee...

Right, right, right...

Cause: talking to Esmonde, he said he saw my "mei mei"... (Aizhen la!)
Witness: Esmonde and some City Harvest Church members!

Early in the morning... Super embarrassing...

P.S. I got already both knees scratched on Monday morning at ECP, roller blading with Louisa, Louis, Samuel and Davis...

Moral of the story: I am accident prone...

My Parents

2009-08-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

Yes my parents, although they are divorced they do not allow what they have gone through pull them down. I think, they are the best middle aged people around! How many people at the age of 50 and 51 will still want to take up counselling courses, volunteer to serve and live their life to the fullest?! MY PARENTS would!

Knowing that they have gone through a rough patch in their marridge, my parents are determined to use their life story to minister to others who are going through what they have gone through... WOW! My parents are amazing!

My dad's a taxi driver, a few months back, he picked up an emotional passenger, facing a divorced paper from his wife. Dad gave all that he can to support that man... From finance, to spending HOURS with him, to lending him his listening ears and putting all else aside (i REALLY mean EVERYTHING else!) just to aid him and show him love.

P.S He's just my dad's ANOTHER passenger!

Knowing that after so much is done for him, yet that man has still not change one bit, dad decided to take up a counselling course to equip himself so that he knows the best way to counsel other people with family problems.

My mum on the other hand, is already writing reports(in chinese!!) about the people she hear from at the counselling centre she is volunteering in. She can't be stopped!

Can't stop, can't stop serving HIM, She can't stop, can't stop serving HIM...~

Yes, my parents are divorced. Yes, dad does not stay with us. Yes, we were all hurt at that point of time. Yes, they are christians, 3 of us are christians too. Yes, they still love God, and God is using them to minister to others!

WAH!!! My parents are so amazing! God is SUPER DUPER amazing!
I want to be like them! I will change! I am feeling TOO small for the longest time!! I WANT TO BE BIGGER!!

School Re-opens~

2009-06-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

I missed the children like mad~ All of them didn't grow up much physically, but they really do talk alot more now than ever! hahaha SO CUTE!

Heart of God church people at work:

Joyce Khoo (N2)
Elaine Lin (K1)
Chan Pei Shan (K2)
Joanne Koh (K1)
Rebekah Ng (N1)

There's one of us in every level !!!!! Revival indeed!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

June holiday was a really good time to catch up on my spirituality. So many things happened, so much thoughts, so much understood. I just need to break through this next ceiling I'm facing now. I know sooner or later I will get through it.

I never want to be disillutioned again. I want to keep on keeping on!

I know that if I give up my all for Your business, You will always lift my burdens up from me as well.

2009-06-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

I was told that mum tried to abort me but was unsuccessful.

It's interesting how God uses all these things to encourage me. Now that I know that I was "unabortable", it's so much clearer that I am here for a reason.

You can't kill me cos' I am here for a greater purpose!

To forgive all said and done to me is the next step I have to overcome...

Rather be dead than to ask for help. People don't really want to help. They just want to feel better about themselves. If help is not topped up with gratitude as readily as the help comes, then trouble will come.

2009-06-14T16:23:00.000-07:00

Aiyo... Can't wait for G Zone camp tmr!!!
So exciting na na na na na na na... So delighting na na na na na na na...

Aiyo... how how how?? So figittive now... Cannot stay still!!! =P

Love Story

2009-06-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

I heard a story today. My mum's love story...
hehe~ My mum's darn cool! she tells me her love story... Not with my dad though.

2009-06-04T10:28:00.001-07:00

I can run faster than Primary school kids! Tested and proven during Children Church Camp!

F-U-N is the drive. haehae~

Recharged!!

2009-06-03T07:02:00.000-07:00

I learnt something important today.

Worship and being able to get into the presence of God or not is a decision.
I was sharing with a colleague (whom Peishan and I respects ALOT!) about how I struggled to worship God and feel His presence at workplace whenever we have devotion every other day. I told her, after serving and pouring out my energy and love for the children at the children church camp, only for one and a half day, immediately on Tuesday, as the teachers gathered again, I could feel the rush of strength coming in as I was also able to connect with the Holy Spirit so tangibly as soon as I start singing and worshipping God. For the longest time in church, I wasn't serving in any ministry. I also told her, it is so true that when we being to give, we are able to draw more from God.

She didn't say things like... "Ya, I agree with you." Not even, "I am so happy for you." She just told me that, to be able to worship or get into His presence or not is a decision. She also said that, to not be able to connect with God is a lie from the devil. We are ultimately made to worship God, to want to worship God.

That totally blew my mind away. It clicked in my spirit immediately. I thought, ya! I allowed devil to deceive me for SO long! I felt really dumb and cheated.

But I am so glad, God didn't allow me to remain deceived. I know that God engineered ways to want me to connect back to Him and also to let me know that I can make a decision to tune in back to Him ANYTIME and ANYWHERE!

_____________________________________________________

It was a great sharing session with my aunt. We usually have heart to heart talks at work. Since it's children's holidays, and teachers are asked to go back for meetings and setting up of classroom, we had more time to talk. We had a LLLOOONNNGGG chat AT WORK! hahaha... till she told me these...

Aunt Kelyn: You are a good girl.
Rebekah: HAHAHA!!! How come I can't agree with you about that statement you just made? I can't agree with you. hahaha...
Aunt Kelyn: To me, you're a good girl.

And tears rolled down...

I myself didn't believed that I am good. As many of you know, I always call myself a spoilt brat. A spoilt brat is what many people think I am.

Even I.

COMING UP!!

2009-05-27T08:39:00.001-07:00

Children church! I AM BACK IN! YAY! Waited a million years!
Attitude determines altitude. I shall be broken! I will be broken! God, Pastors, Leaders and then me.

Even if I'm maligned, I'll still say, "I am sorry". Even if I don't understand, I'll still take it and move on and know that it will be made known to me at a later time...

I have been so unreasonable for so long. Now, it's PAY BACK TIME!~

Thank You FiFi and Liane! I finally can get to move on...

I didn't Hate her...

2009-05-26T08:23:00.000-07:00

I don't dislike her at all. In fact, I like her. She's quite sweet. Just didn't like the insecurities bringing her down... looking for attention and assurance in wrong places. Determines her values on what that is unable to be stable even.

I want to see her moving on. I want to watch how she'll find her purpose in life instead of hating it. My heart goes out to her... I didn't hate her...

Hui Ling is the best la ka!

2009-05-25T05:25:00.000-07:00

Clear minded! Set it straight to the point. Bring your confusions to her and she sets it all in place for you.

Hui Ling only deserves to be with the best! hehe~ I'll see to it.

Trusting and Sharing

2009-05-24T22:31:00.000-07:00

Yes, there are many nice people out there. In fact EVERYONE wants to be a nice person. Everyone wants others to only know their flawless front.

Yes, everyone wants to be trustworthy. Situations gets a better of us. We let it out of the bag. Who can forgive that?

And yes, there are many people who would claim that you can tell them anything and they will always lend their listening hears to you. Then again, how many can listen and not pass out judgement as immediately as anything is told to them? Every few... So few that, it is only within my right hand.

I can't. I am still judgemental. I need to change. QUICKLY!
Then again, no one is 100% good or 100% bad. We all learn to give and take. Love and accept. LEARN THAT REBEKAH!

Till then, I love

God
Pastors
Life
Children
My job
People

I really love... Want to love...

P.S. relationship with mum = relationship with others.
Still testing and proving this point. 60% true.

Something Good...

2009-05-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that I have all the nice people around me! ^_^ people who give me genuine care and concerns all the time! Parent Teacher Conference's OVER! time to create HAVOC! haehae!

PTC was indeed interesting. I was SUPER worried about my language, and being unable to express myself clearly to parents, or if whatever they ask would be too tricky for me to answer them properly.

BUT NO! today went really well! I had a CHIT CHAT session with 10 parents! Love PTC! Love Portfolios! Love the children and how they are improving! I LOVE MY JOB!

To those who took the time to read and pray for me, THANK YOU SO MUCH! You guys are SO spiritual, God answered the prayers!

OOps! I did it AGAIN!

2009-05-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

I gave someone a piece of my mind again! WOO HOO! it felt SUPER GOOD!

Very honestly, I am A LOT more patient to outsiders than to my own family member. Yup, I dare to admit. I am really very sorry to my family at times...

one thing I CANNOT tolerate is lies and promise breakers. OF COS, sometimes I do make the same mistake, BUT, I make sure I pay back whatever I broke. THATS WHY, I do not flare up until that same person does the same thing for more than 10 times consecutively! Yes, I counted, and i mean it. 10 TIMES, CONSECUTIVELY ! Also, I seldom come across such people. It just shows how thick skin and selfish they are. Always only thinking for themselves and their pitiful needs.

And yes, that feller did it to my sister, who gave her so much attention and care! Who will also ALWAYS answer her calls and listen to all the things she wants to complain about! Too bad, that person stepped on the tail of MEAN GIRL!

Don't anyone dare make use of the goodness of people around me. They don't know what they are messing with!

Parents-Teachers Conference

2009-05-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's really stressful as this is my first year getting so up close with parents in times like this. First time because I've never taken a class formally. I've always been a music and movement teacher, and that does not require me to do observations, interpretations and comments.

This time, I have 16 children to account for.

For those who chance upon this post and have read it, please pray for me before you move on to another blog. I need wisdom and wits to be able to answer any questions or doubts appropriately, clarity of speech (sound professional) and mind (being alert).

Thank you so much peeps

P.S, Parent-Teacher Conference is on this Saturday, 23/5/2009 at 8.30pm - 12nn or 1pm.

Standing in between the living and the dead.

2009-05-16T13:49:00.000-07:00

Amazing video by Bill Wilson.

From being an orphan himself, picked up by a stranger on the streets, brought into a church, responded to the altar call and was the only one who had no counsellor to talk to cos he was too dirty. HE IS NOW RUNNING A LARGEST CHILDREN'S MINISTRY IN AMERICA! He is my hero...

All those that he mentioned on the videos that impacted the children alot, are not those who

are from well to do families,
have great education background,
have many achievements in life.

in fact, they are the people who are the most looked down upon. A lady who doesn't speak english except for the phrase, "I love you, Jesus loves you." encouraged a boy whom no one has ever heard his voice to stutter the words, "III...... llllooo...vvvvveee.... yyyoooouuu..... t...oooo" on the day he was beaten to death...

I am so inspired... I want to hug the smelliest child... I want to spend all my money on children! I want to be a pillar to children who has no pillars to lean on! My love for children increased so much... It's tangible...

Sun Ho and Pst Kong

2009-05-15T23:01:00.000-07:00

I woke up not knowing what to do till service at 5pm... I only know that I can't start my day unmotivated... Sun Ho is all that I thought of.

Youtube is the best... soon enough, I've watched videos after videos of Sun and pst Kong for 2hours! She is simply amazing... the things she's doing in China, her bod, her voice... WOO HOO! And he, he is just classy... the things he's doing around the world, flying everywhere and driving a push in everyone... POWER!

I'm so glad I'm part of the family.

The Most Beautiful Song EVER...

2009-05-13T02:42:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry that I've hurt You
I took forgranted all You gave so freely to me
I pray its not too late
To save You from a broken heart
To promise You I'll make a brand new start
Believe me when I say

You are all that I need
The only treasure I seek
You're the air that helps me breath
Through the darkness
Light when I fall down on my knees
I was blind but now i see
You are all that I need

I know I'm far from perfect
Like a child that needs a guiding hand
Can you stay here with me
I finally understand
You've always been the missing part
Complete the jig saw puzzle of my heart
Please hear me, when I say

Please let me hear Your voice again
Let me hear You say Your love will never end
That whatever it takes You'll be there.
(believe me when i say)

By: Corrine May

2009-05-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

Take heart, don't be dismay... please keep on keeping on. Thanks for trusting me so much to tell me all. My heart goes out to you...

Love you loads my dear friend...

p.s. through you, I am strengthened.

Great Day!

2009-05-11T07:51:00.000-07:00

It was really draining in the beginning... as I don't really know them yet... soon, it is just me and him...

As I fractically try and look for people to come, or to join whoever that's outside, it seems like no one else is free! So, I thought, it should be fine, since he is funnily funny, sincere and real. Through dinner, we shared so much and laughed and joked loads!

I was encouraged.

ALL AH BENGS ARE SO COOL!

Yup, it was the best hang out ever!
Thanks Alex! ^_^
All complains and unhappiness left behind...

2009-04-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

Everyone functions different. Everyone has their own set of thoughts. I have to constantly remind myself about that. Life don't revolve around individuals. Rebekah, ReMeMbEr, REMEMBER!

Thank you LIANE! For being so calm. So slow to anger. I need and I want that! sorry, SoRrY and SORRY!

I will and I want to be A LOT more that what I am now.

I love you! Sa nang hae ^_^ (you know who you are!) hehe~

2009-03-29T09:59:00.000-07:00

WAhhh... I just realised that my blog link is on Zone G's blog.

I better start blogging more...
Anyway, how's everything and everyone?! (Reply this qn on my tag board. p.s, trying to get more tags, and testing the market of this blog)

It has been wonderful few weeks of exciting speakers and messages! I'm sure we're all so well fed and equiped spiritually. As for me, alot of issues begin to fill my mind. Things about our life, and how we are to constantly preparing our minds for the "Grey/gray"(Which one huh?!) areas of our lives. I thought, we're so blessed! Our leaders cares and think for us a lot! I bet we're the minorities who are exposed to all these thoughts at this time of our lives. So glad to be around at heart of God church.

My days has been filled with loads of encouragements. In fact, since last year, Oct-Nov, everything seems to have changed. People are telling me things I've never heard before.

P.S. Kinda shy to list them down though, ask me about it when you see me. ^_^

The things they said causes me to look at myself in a different way. Confidences was built up, my values do not depend on people's recognition anymore, I'm able to love people more and effectively and I am able to give more than to receive!

I look forward to what's to come in the future. SO EXCITNG! Can't wait to see new things happening! I love my life!

2009-02-23T05:43:00.000-08:00

It's really amazing how God provides for His people! Pastor once said, the economic doesn't decide on how well we are doing financially. It can't even decide if we have enough or not. God is our provider. Not the economy.

Even with the economy doing so badly, St Paul's church kindergarten teachers,

still gets their $$$bonus$$$ last December
most of us got an $$$increment$$$ then,
another $$$increment$$$ is coming my way
and yet another $$$bonus$$$ is coming in March-April!
PLUS! Government giving $$!

God keeps adding to our account as we keep doing our best to impact His children's lives and give His children our best.

GOD IS AMAZING! HE ROCKS MY LIFE!
I count my blessings each day and I'll still be blessing His name! Forever and ever Amen!

p.s: I promise I'll use this amount of $$ wisely. Not to squander it away on my own things anymore, but may it bring blessings on others.

2009-02-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

Liane, my sister Aichen and I did the craziest thing today! We were so paiseh, we couldn't stop laughing about it. We even made a promise, never to do such things again! NO MATTER WHAT, we will never exchange conditions on such stuff...

Those who already knew... I'm so sorry we didn't have enough time to take a picture of the masterpiece... we didn't even hide ourselves properly!

WHAT IS IT!? Ask me when you see me ^_^ MUAHAHAHA!!

Chinese New Year!

2009-02-01T08:28:00.001-08:00

and these are my relatives...

and we went to Batam... and we love the view from our cottage... and we compared our unit with the others... and we really thank God for it...

and they have very interesting concepts...

and we went to the spa that was facing the sea! and it was so ticklish, I couldn't take it... and I love the hot tub... and we felt like queen, prince and princesses..
.

and we spent 2 days 1 night there... beautiful place...
$150/pax + $50(for shopping) = $200/-
SO CHEAP!

AND! I love G30 and G3! ^_^

2009-01-30T00:59:00.000-08:00

AHHH!!! I keep procrastinating to post about BATAM! Sorry LIONEL KHOO! hahaha ask you to see but nothing here!

OK! I WILL DO IT soon... TOMORROW! haha~

2009-01-24T23:37:00.000-08:00

Many, many, many new clothes! hehe~

I am so excited abt,

wearing new clothes
tomorrow's ang bao collection
batam trip
combine service on 31/1/09 Saturday.

It's been a LONG................ break! I miss church... So weird to not getting prepared for services on weekends. Boo Hoo HOO!

1/2/09 's karaoke outing! hahaha! (Lionel Khoo's long wait!)

I went cousin's church again today. Everything is SO different...

2009-01-05T07:27:00.000-08:00

This year, on top of a Music Teacher, I am to take a class... N1 (3yrs olds) little humans... 16 of them altogether... Under my care. ~~STRESSED~~ responsibility rises... Being a music teacher is just, creating games and sourcing for songs to enhance children's classroom learning, making it more fun. I really salute all who have been form teachers of pre-school kids for the past millions of years man! That amount of stress is unbearable...

MoReOvEr, for these 3 days, parents will accompany their kids to school, to help them get familiarise with the school compound. Imagine this, parents watching you "perform". Watch how you entertain their kids. They'll only smile when their kids smile at you.

HOWEVER, (hahaha...) I am going to give all that I can! I believe I can impact lives with all that I gained from pastors and leaders. These children under my supervision will be EXCITINGLY DIFFERENT! ^_^

2009-01-05T07:02:00.000-08:00

I'm so sorry I'm finally updating again. There's so much that happened. HAPPY things! hehe... I LOVE G3 and G30! Hang out is so fun now. People like Stanley and Lawrence(like ah pek name, HAHAHA!!!) so new yet they are on par with the bible reading plan! Stanley's not even a christian yet. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! haha~

P.S. Stanley is my secondary school classmate. So proud of him!

Honestly, I'll never dare take any credits. All that came in from my circle out there, they are God's work... I didn't put in enough efforts at all... ^_^

God is really moving within us. I've never felt so connected before. Every outing/hang outs churns out so much more peace and love among us. There is such great culture woozing out everywhere. We are authentic, not plastic. Indeed, no one can act "dao" with us for too long. Even the self-proclaim "dao kia" Stanley is laughing all day now~ HAHAHHA!

I'm so afraid to forget how God has brought us thus far. So afraid to go into another round of spiritual valley. Gina said, as long as we keep guarding our heart and mind, we will not stray away too far.

...but what if I forget to guard?...
AHH!!! thinking too much! Haehae...

Stressed!

2008-12-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

SOW is really tough... nevermind, I'll practice. See how far practising can bring me to... SCARED! So many pros in SOW!!! Spoil market ah! hahaha...

Finally, it's the last day of BMT(Basic ministry training) today. I'm so glad I made it through... ^_^
Rebekah, press on!

I made it!

2008-12-03T07:47:00.000-08:00

I'm back from Phil! It was a blast! We had so much fun with the Pinoys, feeding the hungry, painting the orphanage and spending time with the children. Pastor Cleo and Pastor Cindy are the best people in Phil. God's work through their hands are really amazing. I'm definitely going back there every year with the team!

I'm still thinking of them every night. Apple, John, Lyn, Annabel, Cindy, Jean, Marc, Nelson, Johmpo, Carlo, Leonora, Finly, GG, Reah and Micheal

On top of those, I was chosen to join SOW-keyboard! So exciting! I'm taking up BMT-Basic Ministry Training again! Things are picking up. I'm still here with no strings attached except God's love and mercy on my life!

2008-11-23T17:54:00.000-08:00

Absolutely blown away by God's work in this centuary.. Dr. Rev. Kong Hee is really BIG, ENORMOUS, HUMONGOUS! All that is said and done, shown and heard, I can only sit back and look at the whole project from my own mini view. It is really too amazing for me to digest. Sun, she is such a role model!

I can't wait for my Philippians trip on Wednesday! We are going to do exactly what Sun is doing in her humanitarian works! So exciting!

There is so much I want to do... Yet, I'm afraid that I'll give up half way like I used to... Nick Vujicic said that he is most afraid of forgetting how God has led him through the years. I too! I've forgotten so many times, backslided and hop from church to church all my life. It is really scary to go into all that again...

I am still here because God do not want to see me anywhere else out of his love. God dotes. God cares. God LOVES!

Holy Spirit keeps me going...
This is my cry, my one desire. More of You.

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and True
The God I know My refuge

Hearts are healed
Christ Revealed

The God I know
Light of the city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me

As You are
So are we

Celestial!

2008-11-03T00:40:00.000-08:00

Was super fun! haha Jackson dressed up the most~ cool guy la~

After Celestial, we (Huiyun, Winnie, Xinyi, Maybeline, Pei Shan, Jackson, Samuel, Louis and I) went to Cineleisure's Kbox till 6am! hahaha~ reached home at about 7plus, sleep till 9plus, wake up and prepare to go to my cousin's church with Careen. There's so much to say about their church, but I think i'll save it for other days.

Went Kbox again with my cousin Miriam... this time i was really sick of it... time passed super slowly. Miriam and I hang out till 10plus before I was to go appear secretly at Salome's birthday party... Miriam is the best la~ She and her family. They are the most giving people I see other than Pastor How and Pastor Lia.

It was really fun~ hahaha... long time no see them.(Silas, Shuwen, Jolin and Salome) was a great time with them and meeting new people (Pastor Aaron, Jack and shani) who are from SOT, School Of Theology. Amazing people doing amazing things.

It was a pleasant hang out till I found myself in my room at 1.30am! TIME TO SLEEP! I've practically not slept for the past 39hours! Tired...

2008-10-31T03:28:00.000-07:00

its a whole new world!

charlotte's blog inspired me to start posting again

i get to relive a N1 class today. So exciting! so many small humans walking around and telling me about their new bottles, how fast they can drink water and what not the whole day! the usual 3 times a week, 30mins every time they meet me for music and movement lessons is NOT enough?

I secretly hope that teachers fall sick everyday~ so that i can have more cantact with the children... *Evil Rebekah arises sometimes~
But I still enjoy music and movement lessons with them ok! hahaha

there's this other pleasant day... havent been so pleasant for the past 1yr ++! mon. deepavali, G3 and G30 came down to church for praise and worship session. it's the most powerful CG level meeting ever in the past 2years and 9months! after that, most of us went for lunch, shop, talk, LAUGH together. 13 of us altogether. ask me how we shop TOGETHER? i don't know! we just did it! hahaha~ everyone seems so at ease. like everyone is enjoying everyone's company. we had great time bonding. n as usual, i laughed the loudest, and I'm not ashamed abt it! WHATHAHAHAHA!!! ^_^

elaine said, "no peace within self, no peace with people around you." i often have no peace with people at home in the past. well, i was super insecure. now that things are getting better, i feel much better too. think of this friends, if you feel that you've been getting into quarrels with people around you a little too often... maybe its time to check your hearts. are you having war with yourself?

relax! let the vibes go.(its an art that's a little too difficult to master.)I'm learning still.

being the the valley of "everything's alright" for too long makes me long for the submit. Sometimes, I dread being still at the same valley... this longing becomes a strength and now i'm making my way up the mountain again. LEVEL up!?

Whatever other people thinks, I
Love children!
Love life!

Birthday Card from Pastors

2008-08-26T05:59:00.001-07:00

Tears just welled up uncontrollably. Simple words, yet full of love. How come every sentence seems to tell so much about what I'm going through. So amazed...

PS: was watching LA PI XIAO XIN when I received the card...

Most People...

2008-08-26T01:01:00.000-07:00

Most people are different at home and outside. The only people I am sure are not like this are only Pastors. I mean Pastor How and Pastor Lia and all the other people they trust.

Behaving differently shouldn't be considered as being hypocritical... Most of the time, we're trying to be better out of home where everyone has already boxed us up in a certain mindset. Where words flow FREE and FAST. Where words like knives fly around all the time.

Home is the real place where the word of God that says, "out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks." comes to past. What you are really like, shows up at home. Which is also usually hidden when we are with others.

I am not as nice when I am at home and when I am out with all of you! (My dear friends) At least I'm honest about this part of me. Some of you might already have encountered my temper when others tries to be nasty too~ Well, who's the hypocrite then~

As far as I'm concerned, I'll try my best to face my emotions and problems readily and honestly all the time. Am human too!

RAMLY BURGER SONG!!!

2008-08-21T02:46:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to 98.7FM for the past 1month whenever I'm free. Just wanted to expose myself to more songs and "general" knowledge. Which it did help~

THEN! I came across this song. "... Ramly is good, good malaysian food. Ramly is good, eat it like you should..." WAHAHAHA!!! I was just my at house void deck. I didn't even dare to turn back and check if anyone's behind me before I want to burst out laughing. I CONTROLLED! But shoulders are harder to control... Darn funny~ Who in the world came up with such song? SO CUTE! haha~ must have had lots of revelation abt Ramly Burger...

I used to think people who listens to radio all the time are rather pathetic... Now, am doing the exact thing I thought was pathetic. I refuse to say that am pathetic though, I think radio's really interesting! Really builds up your knowledge about the entertainment world.

P.S I'm not backsliding~ hahaha!!!

So Encouraged!

2008-07-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

It's 1.30am now. But I just need to get up and type this down before I forgot to show gratitude...

Linda, Joan, Ronal, Joyce, Liane and Samuel!
So many people spoke words of life to me today. I feel so charged up now! I really want to thank God la... Who else can give me such positive environment? Who else can bring me through the valleys of my life that I may once again see the goodness of summits. Such a pleasant day today. Everything seems so on the right track... I really hope I'll never need to go through the valleys again, but as Liane said, it WILL come again. But I know when it comes, I'll be stronger than before.

Gynn and Cui Ling, you've seen me fall and rise so many times during our days in secondary school. You've seen how much I've changed. You've seen me when I'm most insecure. You saw me improve in all areas. You've saw how I gain confidence. Both of you should be the last to deny God's power, plans and love in my life. All these can be in your life too! Cos I've been through it before and I'll get through it again! I've tested and proven it for you! Now it's your turn to taste and see that God is good for yourselves! I love you!

Then I got a chance to...

2008-07-17T04:11:00.000-07:00

There's devotion every Thursday at St Paul's Kindergarten. Today's our turn(Elaine and I) Sharing my revelation about God after I decided to come back to stay. It was simple... was really careful with what I want to share. Makes sure that I don't say anything inaccurate. I shared that Eve was ALONE when she was looking at the fruit of knowledge of good and evil... in fact, SHE WASN'T! She was with Adam! Genesis 3:6 - ...... She also gave to her husband WITH HER, and he ate.

I was corrected on the spot. I'm glad I was! If not I'll be guilty of sharing the wrong word from the bible. Now I can be more sure than anyone else about this...

I love You Jesus, deep down in my heart! So deep that it gets pumped out and into the blood streams now its all over my body! I don't ever want to go through having bad attitude and ideas about You again... It's terrible... Keep on keeping on Rebekah...

If you are not a believer, WHY NOT?! It's so weird to not be a christian! It's a norm to believe, trust and depend on Him! The TRINITY GOD (Father, Son and the Holy Spirit) My God is so cool! There's no scandals in Heaven! My God is PERFECT!

Lost and Found

2008-07-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Lost my old hp... Found a new hp... Considered lost and found? haha~ Anyway... today's a bad day... Tomorrow's going to be a GREAT day! At least better than today... OH WELL~

One thing good though... Natassha and I clicked in the......(I don't know what)! Something is moving in this friendship with her! So exciting! We're so GAM! Sometimes there's no such thing as "I've known him/her long enough".

There's no such thing as... we SHOULD encourage one another. We actually WILL encourage one another when there is love, respect and trust. It's natural... An it's a miracle when both person has love, respect and trust for each other. Mutually.
(Correct me if I'm wrong...)

I'm inside, outside, upside, downside, happy all the time! God HEALS!
God is Good, all the time and all God's children say, AMEN!

I think I know...

2008-06-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

I think I know what kind of people I can clique with. Mainly, the 1st child of their family.eg, Chris, Randy, Joanne, Salome, Natassha, Maryse... Of course it's not definite. People like Gynn, Cui Ling, Charlotte, Derrick, Elaine, Joyce, Ms Chua, and a few others whom I'm not sure if they feels the same. Haha~ Don't make myself lose face... But honestly, it's nothing much to lost face about. -_-"

Anyway, I kinda like this calmness in my life now. Everything seems to move on smoothly... there's also this sense of ability to gain more in life. As if, I am naturally made to move on and to achieve more than this calmness... AHhhh... there's such anticipation in my life... there's this security that sets in firmly... like something great is going to happen. (I hope it's not the negative "great")

I did better than I thought for my assignments! Though still feel kinda disappointed with the result... an A+ for Philosophy Group Project and only a B+ for Individual Project. Maybe it jus shows that I work better in a team~ hahaha... We'll see.

Becoming more cautious

2008-06-19T02:02:00.000-07:00

Hey all, please help me scan through(if you are that bored ^^) to see if I have any pictures of children in my work place. I've been ignoring the seriousness of posting children's pictures without permission. I better start doing things about it before I get into trouble. Thanks!

Anyway, LOADS of things! Gynn's 21st birthday present and cake. James' wedding dinner(Should I or not?!) Hp bills. Clothes. Laptop. Where to get more $$. I'm sure there's more. This month's pay is used up! It will get better next month! It must get better...

P.S. Still working on that "post-it" personality...

Tioman Trip

2008-06-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

Too many pictures to upload~ Show you all when I see you with my laptop (hopefully I have it with me when u see me...) Can't wait to show all of you!

p.s. Don't ask me about gifts... It's SUPER not ready! hahahaha~ ONE DAY it will appear before you.

What's being fervent towards God?

2008-06-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

I saw it all on my mum's life. Being fervent towards God to me means...

Making evangelism a lifestyle - mum burns extra copies of testimonies on CDs brought it out whenever she knows she's going to meet someone new or encourage a believer to be more connected with God. eg. the Tioman trip.
Never fail to make a point to include God in her conversations.
Able to respond with a loud and resounding "NO" when people(me) talks negatively about God.
Has the "post-it" character - ok with anything. Others 1st. What can I do for you?

P.S. She's not a leader. She's not someone who does things to SHOW(without the need to make it known about what she's done-not even by casually talking about it). She just simply works and please that invisible but TANGIBLE God. She serves with ZERO pride! That's such a GREAT example!

I want to be like my AMAZING mum! please...

Fall Back

2008-05-19T16:01:00.000-07:00

More than falling back physically(Damn painful!), I fell back emotionally and spiritually too. Everything seems alright. To others, am fine. Everything's going according to my plans. At this rate, will I end up in hell? Damn scared. Everything's ok, but not everything is wrapped up nicely. It feels like there are things leaking somewhere in my life. Though I know exactly where, yet I AM STILL NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT! I need to get up and move again. I need to get strong on the inside. I need to keep fighting. I need to flee from all temptations. I know I can. I KNOW I CAN!

but......

Pics VOmitted 3

2008-05-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

New Lappy!!

Took with lappy cam! Gynn and I

Mum with the birthday gift from me! CJ7! her favourite toy now~ hhehe

Woo Hoo~ Looking good Gynn!

Sister and I during CNY! WOo hahaha Damn long ago.

Bro trying to imitate sis's smile~

Cute, Nonsensical Experience!

2008-05-11T08:08:00.000-07:00

hahaha yes, as the title suggest, cute and nonsensical experience for the past 4-5months! Quite difficult to pull it out of my life though. But its good ^_^ Kinda know what's even more important in life.

Anyway, WHY AM I BLOGGING?! hahaha... Tomorrow's another day at work and school... Can't get to sleep... I had a 3hrs rest from 6pm tp 9pm. Now I'm stuck between sleepiness and alertness (if you went through this nonsense before too...)

Projects are dueing on Wednesday. HALLELUJAH! Am prepared ok! Who thinks that projects are fun!? (Rebekah thinks so!)

Got my laptop, Ipod nano, CRUMPLER!!! I AM SO MATERIALISTIC!!! I love it! SPOIL ME! I deserve it! hahaha~ Can't wait for Tuesday to come... I am itching to SING!~ Both of you have to bear with me! hehehe~

Till then~ I love everyone! YES E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E!

Am BACK!!!

2008-04-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

Back with brand new life to live for~ NO more the crazy immature stuff we use to fight for. A little updates though... Started my course last week. It has been great... Things are finally moving on. I'm finally 1 step nearer to my dream~ Oh yes... Certificate in Pre School Teaching (CPT) is the course I'm taking. Family's good too, got a chance to hang out with brother 2weeks back... We realised that we actually don't know each other well at all~ Was a great time of fellowship... Things at home have been rather pleasant since. Someone pleasant came along and we really clicked. Going to be great friends for life, I hope ^_^ Work is great too~ Children are still my prior passion. LOVE THEM LOADS! Basically, life's been busy, bUsY, BUSY! I LOVE IT!

And my life still goes on...

2008-02-06T07:34:00.000-08:00

We meet again! The 3 of us again. 14yrs! Addictive!

My pretty cousin Miriam.

Reunion night.

Cute~ Keegan and Timothy.

K1's CNY field trip - Chinatown and Chinatown Heritage Centre. They must touch EVERYTHING they see! haha~

K2's CNY field trip - On board Imperial Cheng Ho. Stop over at Kusu island. History of Chinese culture. Cute~

Sianz...

2008-02-02T19:12:00.000-08:00

Misplaces my cable again... It will appear one day! hahaha... till then! ^_^

UTTERLY...

2008-01-26T22:34:00.000-08:00

I'm not just sad, I'm utterly disappointed... If I use a more polite tone, I'll get it(the discipleship) without getting the chance to explain, without you understanding my view. Now that I use a more MONO tone, I didn't get to explain either! Allowing you to say WHATEVER about me. I can't face anyone when I'm not doing things up to YOUR expectations. I don't get to share what I feel when I sense things NOT in the right way. I'll just stay away then...

I'm really sick of empty promises and people abusing authority...

You might smirk and think that I'm at it again. Oh well, I can't be bothered to explain altogether.

My Joy. Kids and Friends!

2008-01-25T01:39:00.000-08:00

We met up earlier for coffee in wait for the 3rd one. SHIOK!

It's us! We're friends for 14years! We just love each other more each time we meet ^_^

In the movie theatre.

View at Vivo! We love this place!

Caeley and Clie' K2 gave me a paper flower each this morning! So sweet ^_^ They made my day!

Eliora,3 took the pictures!

2008-01-02T00:31:00.001-08:00

I have to say... It was all well taken... I didn't hold her hands at all... As in the pictures... I was falling asleep... All I told her was that she have to press the button hard! HAHA! She's good at this!

This angelic looking girl is Eliora! 3yrs old!

She feels like a princess wrapped up like this. SO CUTE!

Timothy, Sing Heng, Eliora and Me.

The things we say...

2007-12-29T23:53:00.001-08:00

Either make it or break it... Especially when it's a said in a rash... When you're mind is just filled with anger. THAT REALLY IS ABLE TO BREAK badly!

Keep your comments to yourself. If not, check with someone of higher level of wisdom before sharing with anyone else. I almost broke it again... Thank God, he's a great man of patience. We're still best friends~ hehe... PHEW!~

Late day out~

2007-12-29T12:08:00.001-08:00

Xinyi drove us home! We decided to go Kbox at 12mn... We were so HIGH, I forgot to take pictures in that tiny room... What a waste... Here's some after I've come to my senses~ haha~

okok... Concentrate pls...

The three of them, still wide awake taking pictures... the new face is Vincent and the other guy is Kang Yu...

<<< THE ROAD... We almost bang into another car!!!

Oh yes... I got got home... it's 4am now... PHEW~ What an exciting day! Service was GREAT! I'm glad Vincent came. *-* ^_^

I REALLY lost 4kg!

2007-12-28T06:14:00.000-08:00

Yes... but cos I'm poisoned by Sakura Japanese buffet restaurant's... FOOD of course... and on Christmas... I can't really smile, eat, sit, walk or do anything properly! I forced my way to Xinyi's house for Christmas party with G3 with a friend Vincent OH! haha~ All turned out great. The only thing is... I spent part of the time sleeping in Xinyi's room, and used 1hr to finish half a plate of beehoon which was DELICIOUS! (Vincent did it!) I just can't eat more!... All other delicious food like... Donuts, nuggets, five spice wrap and many more!!! ROAR!!!

I only ate that half plate of beehoon the whole day!

I woke up the next day and realised... I lost 4kg! YAY!!!

Can't really type... still having gastric flu...

Christmas Eve

2007-12-25T22:18:00.000-08:00

Gynn and I decided to make gingerbread man for our lovely friends. Check out the mess...

Better be nice...

Man.... Flatten gingerbread man! It's our 1st attempt... we need time~

Ahh~ Practice makes perfect! ^_^

I forgot to take more pictures~ Aaron and Gynn are great secondary school friends man~ It's amazing how we get to hang out on Christmas eve... God is Good.

Loved...

2007-12-23T09:38:00.000-08:00

Lastly, I just want to tell you that I'm not disappointed with you, just worried for you. I really want to see you up again. The faith-filled Becky I see before...

At this, I will!

Thank you XinYi...

Pictures Vomitted II.I

2007-12-22T20:12:00.001-08:00

There's no need for captions, we all know we look GREAT! ^_^
CHARLOTTE you see your crazy, cute face?! hahaha!!

Watch me TRANSFORM!!!

2007-12-14T09:37:00.000-08:00

Yupz, transform into a Beauty Queen! hahaha~ Tell me it's possible! hae hae hae... I went to Orchard alone today, to get myself a good deal... yup $522!! Good deal Hah! ^_^ WATCH ME TRANSFORM!!!

CRAZY day out!

2007-12-13T10:43:00.000-08:00

It was a Cheese and Pizza day! Charlotte knows why la! ROAR!~

The day turned out with "Rebekah back to her usual form"! The go out, and return home late Rebekah... This should be the way! Staying at home makes Rebekah a Siao Ginna!

Yup, so, the Saviour is Charlotte Chan! Brought us so much jokes and laugher! "Talk leh, talk leh!", "Damn sian, 2 of us only...", "So expensive!!!" and "I don't care! We'll sit here for a long time! Till the crowd goes..." hahaha~ this girls says EVERYTHING that I want to do! hahaha~ Our little Chipmunks brought us LOADS of things to talk about too! The talking and SINGING chipmunks! HYPER cute! I don't care... I want CHIPMUNK PLUSHES for Christmas! Especially Theodore! hahaha~

I bought a 2008 organizer too! From Prints... It's expensive la... But I'm sure it's expensive enough to make me pen down EVERY SINGLE page in it. 2008's going to be NEAT and ORGANIZED!

After sitting down at Starbucks, with Charlotte designing a blank page of my organizer, and tatooing my hand, we decide to head home...

Today's outing, left me in a hyper state.... I can't sleep... I need to blog about today! It's 2.56am...! Time to sleep? NOPE!!! I still want to play Maple, Audition and Sim2!!! Not even soon!

I know EXACTLY what's wrong!

2007-12-11T06:23:00.000-08:00

I still love God. I know that He's real. I know exactly what I should do. I know EXACTLY what I've not done. I know, I know, I KNOW! For those who called, thanks for the effort... I really appreciate it... Who else on earth will care man... Even my brother gave me a skeptical tone.

I also know, staying away or coming back onto the right track or not, is not determined by people's works. I've seen God grace on my life... its A LOT of GRACE! Cannot be ignored. What people say or do, will not be able to make me love God lesser, or put me out of His house.

I don't feel like going out!!

2007-12-07T19:46:00.000-08:00

Really, after a few days of holidays, staying home becomes a joy and my lifestyle... Where's the "I MUST GO OUT EVERYDAY!" me?! The "staying home is a chore and torture" attitude?! Oh well, I have maple story and audition to entertain me.

At times, things just get rather emotional. Going to church gets boring too~ Too much time to think and get crazy... Yupz, thats what I've been doing for the past few weeks, with some of the days back at work to clean up for 2008, and outings with some very nice friends like CHARLOTTE, KRYSTAL, DERRICK, MARYSE, JIN HWEE and JIE WEI! Realise they're mostly E1s? These are the people who were with me all these while! With some hiccups, I learned. Oh man~ hahaha~

I kinda like staying at home. ALONE! TV and PC both switched on. Discovery channel and National Geographic are my favourite channels! SO EXCITING na~ na~ na~ na~ na~ na~ na~!

EXCITING? Think again... Bleh~

OPEN AGAIN!~

2007-12-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

Things has been great! 2nd day of VBS today... SHIOK man! So much taught. So much absorbed! Pastor David Shearer's really very powerful! I understood so much~ Indeed, the word of God is perfect. There is no flaws in it.

Mysterious Humming

2007-11-10T10:18:00.000-08:00

10/11/07, Saturday, Rainy

I went to church with a lot of things in mind. So many things to get for my game stall during CCH! Was very rush, almost lost my cool. Good thing Elaine was there to collect all my rubbish from my mouth. Things turned out well, just that we were all super tired after a long day of preparations and actions. We had debrief till 11pm! I stayed in church for a good whole 11 hours! Thats almost around the clock with the hour hand!

We were told of the mysterious humming during the main service. All children church teachers rushed down to the auditorium to listen to the recording~ No BVs' mikes were on, no frequency caught when the voice was going on. Must be an angel, cos it sang with so much joy and peace. That left everyone in so much excitement and questions. We were so excited that God's presence was so strong with us! Now I'm sure that when we worship, Holy Spirit is singing with us too!

Question is, why wasn't I there when all these things are happening? Why am I left out when Pastor pray for G Zone? Nope! I'm not going to hate serving! I'm going to stick on and enjoy it! Exciting!

After all the excitement, we brought the topic to the prata house at Serangoon. Brother Fabian, Chek Yeow, Darren, Brownie, Charmaine, Maryse, Eric, Kang Yu and I went. I reached home at 2am. YAWNZzzz....

Purely mine...

2007-11-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

9/11/07, Friday. Rainy

I had a long day at work... I perspired a lot more than usual today. After work, I finally get to meet Fion, but things turned out quite boring... Disappointing. Certain things have to happen. I'm so disgusted by the thoughts I have... I want to give up. I don't dare to. I know that it's God that I dare not leave. I'm nothing without Him. I just hate the thoughts that comes one after another... It never ends... I want to be bigger than all these thoughts!

Sister's Birthday!

2007-11-08T09:13:00.000-08:00

Yupz, today's Deepavali. That doesn't concern me.
It's my Sister's BIRTHDAY!

We went to Traders Hotel for an EXPENSIVE buffet dinner!!! $6opax. CRAZY! Never had such good food in the whole of my 20years. CHOCOLATE Fondue! Never had that before too! I had such a great time with the food, I was super full!

Pictures coming up soon! I promise!

Running low on will power

2007-11-07T21:17:00.001-08:00

I realised that when I limit this blog to readers, my post becomes negative. Everything becomes negative. The will to keep up the "I'm doing fine, every thing's great" attitude is lost.

Recently, things are getting REALLY dull... I'm beginning to think that working is fun! Being at work makes me feel alive. Today's public holiday is a bore! There's visitations, family gathering, CG meeting and sister's birthday dinner going on. Nothing appeals to me. Things are clashing like nothing.

I'm going to dress up like a clown again on Saturday! Going to be scary... Everyone's going to come and laugh. Why is it that the low periods are more than the high periods? I was on high mode not long ago, and now things are low again. All these are getting tiring...

I'm looking forward to meeting Fion & Maryse tomorrow, and Derrick & Jiewei next Thursday.
May things turn out well.

Things are getting clearer~

2007-11-06T08:32:00.000-08:00

The effect of not tithing~ hahaha~ Yup, I can't complain. I blocked it out myself. Will open it again.

Hospitality

2007-11-04T08:55:00.000-08:00

Everything's kinda stagnant now. Just got discipled about my unfaithfulness in tithing... Yeah man, Xin Yi's right about things. I'm just selfish. I just want to receive but not give. I fully understand the purpose of tithing now. I will do it.

What about me spending blindly on those in need? That's selfish too? Sadness la Rebekah. When will you ever be satisfied with people? Why always got so much to complain about? Yes, I'm taking what you said literally.

My JOY~

2007-11-02T03:25:00.000-07:00

I think it's such a joy to be left alone and doing all the work we can think of. I was left alone in the administrations office's Alfresco area. I'm so glad I have my brother's lap top with me. Since I've got so much time, I sat there in front of the lap top keeping rather still. Thinking and doing lesson plans.

I used to think that I'm very free. Thats actually cos I didn't take the effort to sit down and start planning. Now that I've done so, I feel so much better about my messy schedules and life-style. There's so much things to plan for! The most important 1st. Tomorrow concert!!! Have to get all the lines and props on my finger tips... Any tiny mistake, I'll be condemned!

Rebekah, FOCUS!

NOVEMBER!~

2007-10-31T06:59:00.000-07:00

A new month again!

Yup, I just want this to be kept away from people who are always here to read, and judge me. Everything I post, it's re-interpreted in their minds, then, posted on their blogs about what I posted. As much as I didn't want them to read this, I'll not read theirs too. Keeping myself away from temptations. Temptations to get angry and over sensitive leading to insecurities. I still have difficulties getting over things... I hate it. Still trying...

This blog is open to:

Gynn
Kesh
Maryse
Bryan Yee

The few whom I trust.

Pastor's right!

2007-10-28T09:32:00.000-07:00

Keeping that hatred isn't good for health spiritually and emotionally. What for let something so insignificant bother me so much man! Got to be bigger than that Rebekah!

It was once told that, when we're born again in the spirit, we do not have dreams of this world and emotions. Yup, all emotions and feelings got to die! Hate is a feeling... So, it must die! Muahahahaha!

Something better to talk about:
Overnight with G Zone in church was exciting man!! Best part was when Samuel, Davis and I get to go into the Studio to jam and worship God. Davis tried the drum set, but was told off my Chek Yeow. That was already 5am. When the rest of the world was asleep. Samuel had to rush off to camp for IPPT at 5.30am. Davis and I continued jamming till 6.30am when both of us felt the fatigue rising up.

WE WERE THE 1ST TO WAKE UP AT 8AM! That's equal to no sleep at all! Still, I have to go to work at 1145, for the children's year end concert, full dress rehearsal. Which turned out...COOL~ The kids got everything in their exciting brains! Everything went excitingly well! Their costumes are BEAUTIFUL! Bryan Heng(4), got the most lines and actings memorised NATURALLY! So proud of him!

Elaine and I rushed back to church at 6pm, to catch whatever that is left of Saturday's service... Which is... 30mins left... That's equal to missing the whole service!!! ARGG! Sermon CD were not available for the service too! However, I believe I caught the most important part of the sermon... To be simple! Yes! To be simple.

I come to learnt that... All complications starts when 1 person allows insecurities(fear, sensitivity and emotions) to set in. That's all that is in this world! Full of insecure people! Thats why the world is filled with complications. Good thing there is Holy spirit who taught Pastors, who taught Leaders who is teaching us(the insecure people), the right way to go.

This is where I discover myself and the people around me more and more. Where there are people, there are problems. More people, more problems but more chances to discover and grow! I thank God for you.

So real. So adorable!

2007-10-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

Bryan Heng(4): Ms Chua, I want to go back to class to drink water.
Ms Chua: Ok, you go then. But don't have to come back already. Cos I'm giving out the lollipops soon, then I'll send everyone back to class. (Kidding Bryan Heng)
Bryan Heng: Erm... actually, I don't feel thirsty already. I was just kidding you.

Haha!~ He's expression is so cute!

Another boy, Shank Kim(4), was best behaved since his 1st day in school cos he won't allow the points we implemented on them to be deducted. Once all the points are deducted, the lollipop we promised will not be given to him.

Kids are so real. So adorable.

Too much~

2007-10-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

I need loads of rests. Not going to reply. Not bothered.

Hung out with Jiexin and Sylvia. I got a precious sms from Jiexin

Dear Father Jesus. I pray for Rebekah as in this season of time of her family crisis let her think that its a test from You. Oh Lord I pray that You will give her strength to pull through. We know that You are faithful and that You will guide her through this season and not only her, but her whole family as well... Thank You Father, in Jesus' name I pray Amen.

Sylvia is another encouraging one. She kept assuring me of all the lies I got from this world and their acidic words are definitely not true. I am not what this world says I am. I will not take in your lies and say, "that's me". I have a Godly family! Where I can be open to my leaders and know that they will not leave me to die. Instead, lead me on by handling situations with the correct approach and replies. Doing the right thing is definitely better than confronting the situation head on, giving the devil more chances to condemn me.

My world will know what you've done!

I learned a lot... I still need time to master it... With self-control given by God, I know I will get it right in no time! The fruits of the spirit takes time to grow. Takes time to cultivate.

So saved!

2007-10-21T06:58:00.001-07:00

Today's message and yesterday's Zone G meeting was ULTIMATE! I am so proud to be in this church. My pastors love us so much! Every word preached were so specially structured! To teach, to correct. I definitely heard very well about my part.

It's not easy to sit in there and be attacked at the same time by evil words... condemnations. Fighting all negative thoughts with the grace of God is CRAZY!

Coming BOLDLY to the throne of grace!

I boldly approached Pastor How today too. I had to thank him for the message! Pastor How was SUPER encouraging! He told me that everyone is good people in church. At first, I can't believe. But since I've decided to stay on and fight with Pastors and leaders of this church, there should be trust. Yes. Since Pastor said so, I believe! Pastor also mentioned that the reason Zone E hasn't been growing is because we're generally too inward minded. Not forgetting G3 who are actually E5. I personally feel that this message is for Zone E.

Pastor How: Rebekah, you need to be more confident ok?
Rebekah: Yes Pastor.

My pastors preach the truth! Not what people like to hear, but what people NEED to know. I'm here. I'll change. Not because of people, but because of the love of God!

Getting more exciting!~

2007-10-19T21:22:00.000-07:00

Be it work, church, challenges or problems, every thing is getting more exciting now!

WORK:
There was a rehearsal yesterday at work for the upcoming year-end concert. I saw how each teacher of individual classes started... From, "how? What to do? Will they be able to do what we have in mind?" to, yesterday's total success during the rehearsal was a great comfort to all the teachers. The only thing that we're all unsure about is if the children will freak out on that the actual day! hahaha~

The theme of the concert is, "The Father's Heart". Taking the parable of the prodigal son and making it into a musical cum skit. The lead actor, Bryan Heng(4) is SO natural, that I felt like crying when the prodigal son became poor and pitiful. Although all the actors and actress still need promptings of their lines, their natural being brought down the presence of God. I'm sure many parents will be touched on that day! I'm so excited to be part of this event.

It's going to be SUPER busy and chaotic, but all this will bring in excitements and a sense of satisfaction in the end! I LOVE CHILDREN! The principal has so much faith in young people. Elaine and I are just going to stick with her as long as she's still there!

CHURCH:
YES!Zone G!~Definitely a place I'll place all my support,time and energy in! Never feel so sure about this before. Hang outs will be so much freer! No time limits, no burdens. Friendships from E1 will keep going on man!(those that are broken, leaving it...) There's no differences. We're all in the same church. Relationship is what we have built. ^_^

CHALLENGES:
Surely, new zone, new CG(in fact, its the same group of people I'm originally placed with)of cos, new challenges! Which I've learned to stick on and work on them till I've conquered! The stubborn Rebekah will be even more stubborn in facing all that are coming.

PROBLEMS:
Same problem, changed attitude. No longer afraid of it. With God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! I am NOT running away from it. No one's perfect! The phrase, "you ain't perfect" is super true! It applies to every pair of feet on this earth since the beginning of all times! Except for Jesus'. Devil, you are not able to put me down with words in fact, it will push me nearer to God and I'll come up stronger than before! Conquering...conquering...CONQUERED!

Yup, it's the new phase all over again!

Sister Mae Ann

2007-10-13T19:38:00.000-07:00

Patient
Understands everyone's behavior. Instead of condemning them, shows love and kindness. Helping them to move on.
Observant: Able to notice every little expressions on the children's face. How each child's face will light up when people around them decides to include them.
PRETTY!~
Capable
Spiritual

What was preached during Children Church was POWERFUL! Even the teachers cried. "Will you step into my world?" Jesus changes all plans just to want to step into a person's world. Eg, Zaccheaus the tax collector. Jesus was just passing Jericho to go somewhere else. He stopped at Jericho, stayed over at Zaccheaus' house just cos He love! That changed Zaccheaus' life forever!

It only takes one person. Watch out for people around us. Someone is crying in their hearts saying, "will anyone step into my world?", "will anyone be bothered to look my way?" and "I need a friend, will you be my friend?" It's in their eyes!

Yes, I will be a friend to them. Yes, I want to step into your world. Yes, you are my friend.

I have great leaders around me! I will be SO open to them! Nothing to hide~ I am who I am.
I LOVE Children Church, Guest Room Hospitality and G3!

No more nonsense!

2007-10-12T20:51:00.000-07:00

So inspired by my cousin's blog. Yup, no more nonsense from now on. Just look toward what is greater than this world, and all the problems that puts us down will be lifted up. Things are turning for the better. It's NOT difficult to drop all things for God! Easy, easy, EASY!

What is your manifesto? Check this out on - http://singhian-mylife.blogspot.com/

My favourite blogs are Garrett and Sing Hian's!

Fries~

2007-10-11T02:59:00.000-07:00

Best fries is found in Pasir Ris!

HALLELUJAH news! & The Rest...

2007-10-07T09:58:00.001-07:00

It's 1am now. I'm SO glad, I can't wait for tomorrow!
Half of what December will bring is here! I don't have to wait till December! All new!

Yang XinYi: Hi, CG mate!
Queen: I'm so glad to here that from you!

That was the most refreshing thing I've ever heard since I stepped into hoGc. It's happening next week! I don't even have to wait for another week! hahaha~

For the rest of my darlings, we're still in the same church! Hanging out is still possible. This is a HALLELUJAH change! We're all going to go up to another HALLELUJAH level!

Winnie and Davis made my day HALLELUJAH! Was a great time fellowshipping with both of you! More to come!

HE heard me scream... HE saw all that is happening... HE saw how dread I was. It's time to let go and let God.

The rest, they kept asking... They are also the few that I can't bare. What this change will bring is greater than what I can hold on to. I can't wait to see the future! Where's the difference? We're still in the same church! We're still loved by the same leaders, pastors and God!

POWERFUL!~

2007-10-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

My superior mentioned,

Having a high enrollment rate and not being to expose the children to the Word of God is pointless. We'll rather have the presence of God than fame.
We shall not be detoured by other people's comments.
Till the day, MOE bans all schools to teach God's word, we will not stop.

Everything just spoke to my life. Thats exactly what I want to do! To have a centre for the young, where every child is exposed to the presence of God. Brought up in a positive environment. A positive working environment for my team. Everything's working towards that.

I feel so energized!!!

I'm so glad I have such a spirit filled boss. She believes in the next generation. She believes in us. The youths. She kept giving me chances and opportunities. She taught me a lot. Her patience abounds!

I will wait. No matter what. I will wait upon Your promises.

Children's Day!

2007-10-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

Had a funny day at Charlotte's place with Krystal. Kept laughing at I don't know what. Charlotte can make big bucks being a joker! HAHAHAHA!~ They made Keagan, Klaudia and Joseph's children's day card. B-E-A-U-tiful! While I stick my eyes on my unfinished book, falling asleep from time to time.

Met Gynn for dinner at Seoul garden!~ Super long time since the last time I went! She complained. I listened. She talk. I cook. She'll get better. We're each other's emotions trashcans! haha~

Tomorrow... Fransisca and Kellie! I need to meet them again! They were my buddies! I neglected this part of my life while getting back on track after that heavy fall. I'm back now! Can't wait to see a better tomorrow! I can foresee thunderous laughters!~ WAHAHAHA!

Where did my time go?!

2007-09-28T18:01:00.000-07:00

Finally I get to update again. Been lacking sleep and finally, I've replenished all the time I've stayed up to... I don't know do what. Anyway, It's great to feel super alive again!

It's 1 year anniversary to:

My time in early childhood career.
My condition...

God is in control. Whenever I call out, "Shepherd, come to me. I need you. Come and help me." I know He'll definitely come and lift me through. When resentment, bitterness, self-pity and fear talks, I will develop the ability to shut them off with the power of the Holy spirit.

I can't wait for service to start! 41st day, Pastor How's powerful message! I don't believe I won't be renewed today! I'm ready to receive! I'm HUNGRY!(physically and SPIRITUALLY!...)

I learned~

2007-09-23T09:33:00.000-07:00

We can worship without being able to be a praying warrior. A praying warrior definitely can worship!

While Maryse and I were doing our reading in the Pre school, Boon Kiat entered. Soon, Maryse need to go, and Boon Kiat started doing his QT. In the cry room just next door, a CG was having worship session. God's presence overflowed into our room and soon Boon Kiat started worshiping too. While I read my book with more anointing both from the author and from my environment. I'm suddenly reminded of the times I just started my walk here in this amazing church. Those were the times that I'm not distracted by other unnecessary things. Those were the times I'm most secure under a great leader. Thats exactly what I've been looking for since I lost it. Now, I'm working towards it again.

My Lord will lead me there as I keep seeking.

The book I was reading was, Hinds feet on High places by Hannah Hurnard. It was GREAT!!! The content is SO true! So encouraging! There's so much in stored in this book~ Taught me so much! Now I know why my leader wants me to get it. Names of the characters in this book are so CUTE! A MUST GET!

How often do u see me with books besides the bible and my notebook since I step into church?Hardly huh?~ hehe~ I read the 1st 5 chapters in 1 breath!! Being a naturally slow reader, that's something I've never done before! Exciting book can?!~ hahaha it's only $13.90 from Generation bookstore!

Charlotte Chan~

2007-09-19T07:19:00.000-07:00

Here it goes! 50 words!~

10 Sep 07, 01:44

charLotte: OF COZZ ! HAHA ! CHAN ALWAYS ROCKS !!!!!!

11 Sep 07, 00:05

Queen: Hanna!~ hahahaha~

11 Sep 07, 23:27

charLotte: i hate tmr ! blog abt me !!!!!! 50 words!

12 Sep 07, 16:01

Queen-Char: Eh~Can I act blur about that tag?! haha ok la ok la~
coming soon la~ planning the script now!!!
Big project from charlotte must plan 1! hahaha
12 Sep 07, 16:25

Queen-Char: the difficult thing is... cannot be more than 50words! hahaha

This girl is such a happy nut~ Laughter is funny like nothing else!
Everybody knows that~ Super real. Nothing to hide.
She is what you see. Super sincere! I like that!~ Ah siao~ hurry up
set up your pc and read this!

Naughty girl! We'll get through all these soon! You're such a joy!

IKEA!! WHEN?! I want the meatballs! wahahaha~

p.s : Got 50 words already?! hahaha~
Kidding la~ You'll hear more when I see you~

Fearful~

2007-09-16T09:32:00.000-07:00

I admit, I'm terrified around you. But a sense of Godly fear always comes immediately after I'm reminded of you. That leaves me in a presence, full of joy and peace. Today, that fear was immediately transformed into an ability to sense the presence of God quite readily.

It kept saying, 'be still and know that I am God. Every thing's in good hands.'

God is good all the time. All the time, God is good!

I wonder who's next in line. So excited to find out! hahahha~ I love people. Good or bad. Everyone deserves yet another chance! Everyone deserves to be loved cos' God loves us unconditionally! I can't wait to see the more spiritual us. Going to be great! Till then, we'll all be SO mature, SO secure! God, will lead us there! ^_^

Rebekah: "It's been a long time God..."

2007-09-14T17:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I thought that doing quiet time is such a joy. Everyday with Jesus is amazing! Through it, I was reminded, captivated and now, I'm so inspired to throw everything else behind and keep moving up~

Worship session was randomly amazing~ It's been a long time since I last prayed so strongly in tongues that I felt a breakthrough in the atmosphere! People cried, people smiled when God moves around us in the room. Maryse said that she saw God in her spiritual eyes. HE is huge! God was lifted up!

Yang Xin Yi prayed for me and it was TOTALLY HALLELUJAH! Yes, I will not be limited by people's words.~ I am not what people say I am. I am not what different kinds of tests defines me as. I am YOUR creation. YOU reveal my character, strengths and personality to me. Yes, I will come up stronger and even hungrier for YOUR presence! The unlawful hunger!

Wisdom tooth / Lame days are MY kinda days!

2007-09-12T00:37:00.000-07:00

My 1st wisdom tooth! hahaha~ Late or what... Anyway, eating is a chore now. This half grown thing in my mouth is irritating! Now I feel dizzy. My head feels like it's cramped. What a slimy feeling...

Anyway again... I was so sleepy at work today, that while filling up the content page of the children's communication pouches... I fell asleep! haha~ while my eyes are closed, my hand's still able to write! After a second... I snapped back to consciousness and found the row of words rather untidy. Laughed at what I just did in the room by myself. How silly is that~ haha!

Yesterday, and the day before yesterday (Monday and Tuesday) was great la!~ I hung out with a few friends on Monday. From... I shall not tell you~ Hehe. He, she and I went out on Tuesday! Package A was the route we took.. haha~

Yes yes ok.. Package A - CityHall, walk pass esplanade, go to the very nice Spinelli cafe, and then to the ACTS bookstore(The book store i mentioned on this space about 1million yrs ago?!) then back to City hall for half priced cakes at Cafe cartel. But in the end, we end up going to the prata house at Serangoon. It was fun still~ It's the people we're with not the place we're at. It's the 2nd time he, she and I went out. I mean just the 3 of us... But we always had very nice chats and exciting things to plan for!

Oh if you're wondering... Yes, there's another package. Package B-Cineleisure, get a room to hang out and talk. In the room:TV, PS... and I don't know what. haha~ Some slackable place la. Since I suggested Package A, he suggested Package B. She had to chose which to go for. Package A! haha~

Lame days... but I like! hahaha~

Whatever it is...

2007-09-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

I'm glad. Thanks~ From all these, we learned, grew and will forever be stuck on our hearts. ^_^ Manz... My head really hurts now... Whatever it takes, whatever the cost.

SLEEP! I'm coming! wahahaha~

Dis-interested~

2007-09-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago, nothing in church excites me. Today, things just burst off again! Sermon was really great! It's been a long time since I last felt the presence of God so tangibly. A new start. New motivations. I've tried doing things in my own way.

The result: I am limited. A LOT of things I cannot do with my own strength.
The solution: God, Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit.

People come, people go. Whoever that's worth to keep are still here. Oh well, I'll just make sure I move on... God be the solution! We will be Your hands and be Your feet!

Clean and Clear!

2007-09-06T09:39:00.001-07:00

Yup, things get so much clearer after knowing so much from Gabriel. Things get so much cleaner after a hearty chat with Gabriel again. Haha~ You're the man la~ My brother is so fortunate!

EVERYBODY! Gabriel is a great person!! ^_^